Rage...

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I'm angry, I've been angry for weeks, and I hate this girl that I've been obsessing about. She acted all interested in me, told me to call her, wouldn't stop talking on the phone with me. Then cut me out of her life, and I was in denial that she was cutting contact with me, but it hit me a couple weeks ago and I had a meltdown.

I don't love her anymore. I never even met her, it's so sad and pathetic, but this is what I've been reduced to. I only met her online and spoke to her on the phone, and I really thought we had some kind of connection here.

I don't feel anything right now except burning rage. I want to call her up and scream at her. I want to send emails and messages to all those girls who simply toyed with my emotions for their own sick pleasure. Who lied to me over and over again. I want revenge! I want to make them cry!

I obsessing over people. I'm even angrier because it's not a man who I can simply beat up or an object that I can smash into a million pieces. I want do destroy the dating system entirely. I wish it were a person or a physical object that was controlling these girls, so I could destroy it!

f**k! I'm so angry at these women, men, everyone who plays these games.

Yes, I'm angry at these System Men, too. It's their fault women are like this. Their fault for using and abusing these hollow shells of women. These hollow shells of men, are worthless, and they get all the love and affection, their empty heart desires!

I agree wholeheartedly about the dating system - let's ditch it! As for the rest, I'm discovering now in my own life that things were not what I thought they were. Some were worse, some better. In my own life, I'm seeing that I didn't understand others' motivations at all. It's startling. I don't know if it would have helped me then, to see clearly, so I don't know if there's any point in saying anything about it. We aspies tend to obsess - I've been surprised to discover that others don't even remember it! What would this mean for you. Um. We can't know what others are really thinking or doing, it's a waste of energy to try. And this leads to the emotion that results - in this case, rejection? But it's an emotion built on sand, there might be no foundation. Let it go? What an awful thing to say, I know. But this rage is hurting you, and it leads nowhere good. I wish you peace. Hang in there.

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I hope things improve with you soon!

You can do better than her, Jkrane! You have us!

Rage... Dont really have that anymore.

Man, does that sound familiar. Dating is overrated. Katherine Hepburn suggested that instead of marriage, men and women should live next door and just visit. Much better idea.

I hope you can vent that out without hurting yourself. No one deserves to be treated that way.

I can totally identify with you there... that feeling of wanting to really hurt someone and make them pay for the hurt they caused you.
Only I tend to end up turning my anger at others inwards and on myself which makes it so much more dangerous.
I wish I could suggest something useful but right now I cannot even channel my own.
Just don't break any windows lol.