A Rant that needs to be let out!

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My days are the same five days a week, which I like. I go to course, come home, go on the computer etc. But I can't seem to connect with anybody and its really depressing.
At my course I don't get talked to all day by any other students (literally). And only when the tutor asks me a question. People do not even look at me, they walk into me as they walk passed me in the corridors and have no consideration of how much their noisey music on the radio annoys me. It's like they do not even comprehend that I am in the same class as them, let alone attend the course.
It's not that I am getting bullied, but just getting completely isolated from people, even when I am in a crowd of them. If I do say something to another student, they will generally ignore me, or just look at me and walk out of the room. I have no idea what I am doing wrong to make this happen to me. I am trying to do my best at socialising, but obviously it's still not good enough for anybody.

And worst of all, I had a meltdown at course and everyone was staring as I was rocking, I decided to get up and leave course for the day. The next day was just as bad as people said that the day before I looked "high on drugs" or "spaced out" . No one understands autism these days and I hate the fact that I am being ignored because of my differences.

Deliberately excluding someone is recognised as a form of 'indirect' bullying.

And accusing you of being 'high on drugs' when they are probably aware that there are genuine and good reasons for your behaviour is unacceptable.

Is there a member of staff you can speak to about these problems? Perhaps they could get the other students to behave themselves better and to treat you respectfully.

This situation sounds horrible!

I suppose if they really think you are on drugs, this may be why they are avoiding you?

I agree with the previous poster, in that maybe you can confide in a tutor. Do the college authorities know about your AS?

I was treated badly at college until I officially became a Handicapped Student. Then the profs got cool and that trickled down to the students, and I'm glad I did it.

You said, "But I can't seem to connect with anybody and its really depressing."


I can relate.


And btw, you can connect with me! Just PM me if you want to talk any time about anything at all!


What Claradoon says really works sometimes, other times (but usually with children) it has the adverse affect... at one of the high schools I was at when it happened all it did was change the people who picked on me... instead of one group, it was another.

I feel for you. Actually watching the people around you delibrately isolate you is painful. Part of the pain for me is also confusion; I simple don't understand what could make people act that way.

I do have to giggle at your comment about nobody understanding autism "these days". Just when DID people understand autism? lol (This is ment in the best of humors, because it sounds like something I would say and then think to myself how silly that was after saying it )

-Rae

thats why i dont get my GED or even attempt going to college, NOBODY will want to chat it up with me. and i'll just sit there struggling to get all the the teaches words down so i can get a passing grade

I can't really connect with a lot of you. Some of you develop depression and I DON'T know how to talk to someone with depression. Not only that, but because my AS is only high functioning, I'm caught between NT and Aspie. I'm pretty much invisible.