Lately I've felt very lonely and depressed indeed. There's me and my mum, and that's it.
All my other friends are online and they can only be of so much solace on days like this.
I'm bored, lonely, frustrated, depressed, can't concentrate, thngs that usually give me pleasure aren't.
Part of me tells me to pull myself together, don't be an idiot, but the rest of me is just trying to fight the darkness.
And lately I've even considered what there is worth holding on for, and you know what comes after that.

Have you been to a counselor to at least help you figure out why? Or help you make new friends?