It just goes on and on and on

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I'm tired of discrimination. It's everywhere. In online adverts where people are looking for friends they usually say something like "by the way I'm not a sad case with no social skills, I just want some new friends" or "no weirdos need apply". It's always the friggin' same. People make jokes and dismiss people with no social skills like me.

I'm tired of phonies pretending to give a damn. Being polite and pitying you for a few e-mails . Then as soon as you tell them you're suicidal or they get the message you can't be easily cheered up because you're a person who thinks strangely they give you the cold shoulder and act as if they never knew you.

I got myself some awesome drug and started smoking it today. It's not working yet because I was rolling it and the papers weren't any good. I've got a pipe and I'll use it tomorrow once my parents have gone because they're gonna be visiting my apartment today.

I have this idea I might a self help group near me on tuesday or wednesday but in my heart I know it's going to be no solution. They're those places you sit in a circle and talk about depression or anxiety disorders. I've no doubt I'll be the person nobody wants there who ruins the pleasant atmosphere by being so out there. I'm afraid of going. And I just don't want to exhaust every possible opportunity 'cause once I do I really will have given up all hope.

All the best,

I know what you mean but discrimination sadly is part of life, people are afraid and often unaccepting of what's different in life, sad but true. I would recommend trying the group and see how it goes, you never know until you try!

Accepting it is as good as enchorging it.