Paranoia? Losing my mind? Teenage problems?

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I'm not in the mood to write a long essay or be articulate, and I am rather f****d off so no negative comments back please.

I am just a typical teenger really, 16, gay, suspected Aspie, but...

There's one thing that annoys me the most in this world full of greed, ignorance and total disrespect and that is people who are obsessed with designer clothes (shallow), cocky guys that think they are attractive and some actually find arrogance attractive! (shallow), and confidnet people, yeah I think this started as jealouy and it has turned into some bitter cycle for me which is escalating to make me very angry and sharp with people, I don't see how other Aspie's can contain there hurting e.g because it's hard to find an outlet for all this f*****g creativeness and intelligence inside of me, I have interesting opinions but these things just are not seen by the 'normal' people in this society and it is really depressing that I feel I could stay like this forever, having so much to give.

I do voluntary work and that's given me motivation and hope (things I lack), and I am very good at Psychological stuff etc. like alot of other Aspie's but my motivation muight drop and I might drop out of college etc. and the worst feeling is when you know you are capable of something but you are not strong enough to achive it.

I apologize again for what looks like a rather frustrated and ignorant post but I'm abit pissed off with society plus my brain obsessively tries to conclude everything in this world, IT WILL NOT STOP THINKING and if this carries on I feel like my brain will go into meltdown and my brain will detach from my emotions and I will tun into some kind of psycopath.

Can somebody please tell me that I will grow out of this and my confidence will be gained in the future even thought it is low because of my chikldhood and bulllied at school, will I grow out of it or will this stay with me?

Thanks, and I'm serious, I had very dark thoughts today and the day before, and each time I go into the phase I feel like I am one step closer to going insane.

we often feel we are going insane because we are over analyzing a problem. we explore inside our minds more well and fully than others.

The worst part about life is that the only constant thing is there is going to be changes. The best part about life is that life will change. I grew out of a lot of real issues I had with emotions and other people by learning empathy and learning to care for others. That is what gave me confidence in myself.

I have no idea if this will work for you but it is all I have that I know is true for me.

I wish you the best.

I guess this is maybe why some people with AS get misdiagnosed as being schizophrenic. I have the problem of seeing abstract and different meanings. It is like, it can't be a concidence and no else notices or they pretend they don't. I am fasinated and at worst paranoid. I don't say anything to anyone because my thinking is more based on music, patterns, sequences and letters etc.

It is difficult to explain and at the moment I don't understand those thoughts. It is like abstract thinking becomes a science. Visually everything becomes a puzzle and anyone around me at the time beomes apart of the puzzle, if I am crazy enough to think that way. It seems so real at the time.

Maybe if I thought like that more I could explain something really important that no one else understands, like an einstein.
There is alot unknown about the brain and how it works. I think alot of what they call abnormal or disturbed, isnt.
Disordered thinking and you have a condition. It is because you are using a other part of the brain that most people don't. That can come across as a disorder because if you are not being average like everyone else. It might be because you are over using a other part of your brain. That can slow down other thinking especially if in some ways you are really bright. Your focus can become so fixated that a social world doesnt exist anymore and unless you snap out of it, it can be difficult to get along with anyone.

This happens to me anyway. I relate and act so differently than other people do. I think to others Ive come across as a girl with a retardation problem. It doesn't happen much and that is good because when it does people stare I hate it when people stare They think Im high. I'm on drugs and I am not and so.. I don't think I am an alien neither.

no one can tell you things will get better
then you come to expect it and if it doesn't happen you end up even worse then when you began
good luck to you in your future man

thankyoeveryone for your imput, much appreciated, I just wiondered if it sounded like teenagew problems.
I don't really understand why my brain can't just tell me that I am higher than those things and so I should just leave them to there shallow ways, but I can't seem to.

I most probably have over analyzed it so it has become exxagerated in my mind.

As far as conclusions go may be you could try not concluding and jsut attempt to understand the best you can? there does not have to be certain knowledge.

I have the same as you do, so does my father. I know it is bad, but I don't think it'll change. My father is 60 years old now, and he's had the issue you have for his entire life, so have I. There's not much you can do about it, except for learnng how to deal with it.

I have that too, that my brain won't stop thinking. I know neither as you what to do. I wish I did, but nothing has helped. Same story: Learn dealing with it. I'm trying to do that.

I'm a slight misanthrope, and I do understand. A girl (not a relative) where I live is obsessed with Victoria's Secret stuff, and she's almost always getting whatever she wants (like Abercrombie - I know she loves that... >.<). I'll need a computer of my own soon once I get out, and not only did this girl get one for a recent X-mas, she'll get one next Christmas. Someone tell me why I have to suffer and she gets whatever she wants on a freakin' silver platter?!

Sorry for ranting on your thread. But yes, designer fashions and all that is not what the world is truly about, is it?