kc8ufv wrote:
I know it's hard to loose someone you love. I pray for you and your mom. However, know that if she does pass, she has gone to a better place, and eventually you will be with her again. We are only on this earth for a short time. As you may already know, I have recently re-experienced the loss of someone I loved. These thoughts, along with all the people left that I still care for, are what helped me through that tough time.
I know she will be in a better place if she goes , I will miss her so much and thats what's hard.
I also worry I will have to commit myself into a hospital for a week or two if I cant handel it. The rest of my family do not understand me and I do not think they will help me if I am sad.
I do have my boyfriend in the uk though. I hope that he can help even though he is far away.
I wont try and hurt myself or anything like that . I just might need to check myself into a hospital just because I will be a compleat mess and I dont want my family to start thinking I'm crazy again. ( my father dosent like emotion) and he will try and commit me anyways.
My mother is the only one in my family that was half way decent. She kept my father from throwing my on the street many times.
I did get kicked out but my mom toled me she was trying to talk my dad out of it. And she toled me I can go back home if I ever want to.
I have a bad past with my dad but I feel it is in the past now.
The point is my mom is the only one that truly cares about me in my family. After she is gone I will be alone, and the only one who will still be there for me is my boyfriend.
I'm very scared of being alone. I can't take care of myself without help so I'm worried.