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I have a question for you guys.

When I was 17 I lost tuch with reality and started to believe the lord of the rings was real.
That was my spechal intrest at the time.

I went to 3 diffrent hospitls and they dident really cure me . I had tactile hallosinations, people were talking to me in my head, (at the time i thought it was telepithy) and i started thinking pictures could see me.

I went preety insane.

That was a few years back but I'm scared it will happen again. I wasnt diagnosed with any psicotic dissorder. And I dont think they knew what it was.


The problem is I think it was caused from stress and I turned my spechal intrest into my reality as an escape.

I have been scared to become obsesed with anything because of this . I want to let my self have a spechal interes but i'm afraide i will go off the deep end again.

I tried letting my self have a spechal interst last night and i felt the feeling i did when i went nuts last time. I don't know if its just me worring but i think i was slipping into delusions again.

My question is , can i be obsessed with the things i like without going insane.

I like things like ufo's, magic ,conspirisy therious, the occult, anything that is a mistory.

Any advice would be great!

Those sound like symptoms of schizophrenia which can be controlled by medication if you get it properly diagnosed.

I had a similar experience with aliens from outer space - where I would continuously look up stories about them until I believed that they were walking around in my home while I slept at night. I was only able to end this fear by convincing myself that aliens could not possibly exist - our God created life only once and shaped it into His image. From a scientific point of view abiogenesis has not been proven to be possible which means that life could not have occured outside of Earth.

It's fine to have an obsession as long as you have a way of telling yourself that it is not true reality if you get pulled in too far.

To Sea_of_Saiyan: People who believe in a god are the biggest schizophrenics. Why must you bring religion into every topic? There ought to be a rule against hijacking threads on WP to spread religious propaganda! And if you kept up with the latest studies, you would know that abiogenesis is perfectly possible.

To just-me: I share your interest in the mysterious (von Däniken, crop circles and the Bermuda triangle have been among my favourites), and the only way for me to enjoy a fiction is to believe in it, though I will insist even to myself that it's "just a story". (Then again, they've found hobbit skeletons in Indonesia, so...) It's a bit of a tightrope walk, but I think the solution is not to take an exclusive interest in anything. Obsess over two mutually exclusive fictions, or balance your obsession with something terribly mundane to keep it in check. And there's nothing wrong with keeping an open mind. Some conspiracy theories may be true, but you should never accept anything without convincing evidence.

First off, I believe in God, but I also believe that there could be something else out there because of thre vastness of the universe, and why would God have to tell us if there was something else we would never come into contact with?

Anyways to the point of the discussion:

I have lost myself in my obsessions before, never to the point of fully believing them, but to the point of roleplaying them. I loved PSO (phantasy star online) to the point that I made a FOmar costume (woulda done a FOnewearl as it is myu favourite class, but that would involve trying to roleplaying opposite sex, not going there). I recently damaged my lungs wsorking on an addition for the costume, a new weapon that is very realistic looking for the game, and inhaled a lotof dust through my inadequate breathing mask I used. I learned that of all things, I had to be more careful when persuing my interests.

Get grounded into a variety of things in the real world.

Just me, my evil doctors have diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder which is basically schizophrenia and a mood disorder combined. It is because according to them, I have something known as "bizarre" delusions (ones that are impossible to happen in real life) but the thing is I don't believe that. I don't have any delusions. I'm surprised they didn't diagnose you with a psychotic disorder because what you have been through are classic signs of it. Just remember, I know all. Or is that one of my delusions? I believe in aliens because I have seen their UFO's several times, they talk to me in my head, telling me that I have a "special purpose" for them but they haven't said what it is yet. I believe that there is a bomb in my neck (I actually feel the shape of it), there are nanobots in me turning me into a robot with flying capabilities with a jetpack that the nanobots created from within my back so I have to make slits for them to pop out of my back when the "transformation" is complete and test it out, the bomb is capable of killing 300 million people and starting world war 3, there is a satellite armed with lasers so when I go outside in the open I move in weird ways so they don't get a "lock" on me, there are cloaked FBI/CIA agents in my house almost everyday and they have an underground headquarters near my house, I hear helicopters flying over my house spying on me, I see shadows on the wall and hear footsteps of the cloaked agents, and more. I take poison pills for my schizoaffective disorder which I don't believe in the first place. Evil doctors!