. . . school, and also my current social life.
I finished high school, got a vocational degree as a computing technic, learned english, and that's enough for me. The problem is that everyone I know (included my parents, teachers, classmates, . . .) thinks you need a "career degree" in order to succeed on this world. And I say that way of thinking is stupid. . . a "degree" is just a paper, it doesn't mean anything for me.
CAREER DEGREES ARE BULL$H1T ! !!
I'm really sick of college, it's a total waste of time. I learn more when I stay at home playing videogames or surfing on the web than attending to school. And it doesn't matter if I'm honest, smart and do my best, because my f***ing school is full of corruption. . . it's all about money and charisma.
I arrive home after classes and begin playing videogames at 6pm. Since almost all TV programs are rubish I rarely watch TV. After 15 minutes, my father comes to the TV room and say "Shut down everything. Go and help your mom in the kitchen, it's not time for playing". I know I have to help with the house duties, and I don't like he tells me something I know I have to do. I turn the console on again later, and begin playing again while my parents are watching TV, then shout "Shut up everything, you've played all day. Now it's too late and you have to sleep". And then, when will it be the time for gaming?
Hobbies and interests (mainly videogames) helped me to cope with school last 10 years. There is not anything more relaxing than reading and playing videogames after a stressing day at school. But now, my parents are screwing my stress relief valve up. The truth is, they wanna make me to stop playing videogames and leave my "childish" hobbies, just because they think videogames are for kids, and I need to act "more mature" (my mother finally confesed it). I've skipped school for three weeks, my dad doesn't know, and my mom doesn'tnow exactly how many time I've skipped school.
I'm not on drugs or alcohol, don't attend to parties, and I'm not interested in casual sex like other people of the same age. I'm not a criminal, I only want to play videogames after school, and some freedom and privacy. Am I asking a lot?
I continue studiyng because of my parents. I've told them several times I wanna leave school and get a job, but their lines are always the same: "First you need studying, and when you have a career degree, you'll find a good job", "You don't need a job for earning money, because here you have everything you need. Consider school as your job now"... blah, blah. Maybe I'm wrong and they have the reason: as I live in my parents's house, I have to obey their rules.
. . . But this could change if I leave home and follow my own rules. I wanna leave my city and begin from zero in a new place, with different people. Yeah, it would be dificult and I'll miss my family at the begining, but this would be the best for me and them. I love my family, but my siblings are annoying and my parents are suffocating me, it would be sad if that love I feel turns into hate.
The problem is, I don't know where to go after I leave home. Going to a friend or relative's house and ask for help is not an option, they can't understand me. I don't have the skills to survive in the concrete jungle for myself, but I really need freedom and independence.
Anyone here leaved home in the past? What was the first step you followed?
10 Mar 2009, 5:13 am
