Maybe you believe you're scum, that you're worthless. But you haven't accepted it. You're not just sad, you're angry. Cause deep down, you feel like it shouldn't be this way. That you are worth something, that you have something to offer the world. But you can't see it, and you wonder if it's just an illusion, that you just imagine it. Well, you aren't. You are worth something. You do have something to offer. No, I don't know what it is. But I know the anger underneath the sadness are the glowing embers keeping the fire in you from going out, keeping you from accepting your 'place' as a loser who can't survive.
People say anger's a bad thing, but sometimes it's all that keeps you alive, and keeps you climbing up out of the dark well you're in. I can't do a lot from here, but if the advice and wisdom of a 35 year old blue collar aspie can help,than I'm here for you.
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Everything would be better if you were in charge.