Another reason why I fantasize patricide

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Hello again, it's me...hey hey! Hold your exasperated eye rolling off for a few minutes at least, so I can at least explain the reasons for my latest rant. But at least this is relevant to something that happened a WEEK ago, not 4 years ago!

Anyways, last week, because of the incident I had with my younger brother, and him plastering my bedroom wall with what I call 'bad numbers', I wanted to paint them over because I felt it would be the only way to cleanse my room of the feeling that it was tainted. Well, Dad caught me hovering around a can of white paint I was considering, and said I was 'skulking about', and asked me why.

Well, I explained that I wanted some paint for my bedroom, and I was happy to listen to his reasoning why I couldn't use that can, because it was exterior paint only. Then he said all I needed to do was just move a wall poster of mine over those bad numbers. I said thank you, but that's not enough. I even offered to use my own money to buy my own can of interior room paint that matched my walls color, because I honestly feel that's the only way I can feel at ease in my own room again. His response?

"Jeff, just move the damn poster!"

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He...has...NO F**KING IDEA HOW HARD THIS IS FOR ME!! ! I tried to explain myself as calmly as I could, but no! He has to be an ignorant d**khead about it, which proves once again he doesn't take me seriously as a human being!

Needless to say, immediately after the conversation was over, I entertained myself to beautiful thoughts, of me taking Sadako (my name for the family's pink carving knife) and JABBING HER RIGHT THROUGH HIS F***ING THROAT!! !

Until he learns to treat me like a G.D. human being, who occasionally has irrational thoughts and fears and habits, he'll get no quarter of mercy from me!
I don't know when he'll finally kick the f***ing bucket; maybe tomorrow (I can only hope!), maybe a year, maybe ten years from now, but mark my words, I WILL OUTLIVE HIM IF IT KILLS ME!! !

Okay...NOW you can feel free to roll your eyes at me.

Usagi1992 (though you figured that out yonks ago)

you are seriously overreacting...jeez move the poster

How is it hard to move a poster?

I myself have stuff written on my wall that I don't like. I could have painted over it but you could still notice it. Finally I hung up a hat that I don't use and haven't recalled about it till I read this thread.

Lol, using chocolate icing on a wall. Seriously, wanting to murder your dad over something so petty is pretty low. Why not scrap or scrub it off the wall? there are plenty of household cleaners, probably in your kitchen, that will take paint off walls especially with an abrasive like steel wool. Or how about punching the section of drywall out? then if he beats your goofy ass bloody you can have a halfway legitimate excuse for your sociopathic fantasy.

Bad numbers? Talisman? What are you talking about? Why can't you masturbate if there's numbers on your wall?

I swear some of these belong in the "rants" thread.

Hang on, didn't your brother get into trouble for vandalising your bedroom?

Have you tried rubbing alcohol, the clear kind? Usually works good for sharpies. Seriously though, you've got to work on not letting a set of numbers get to you so much. Desensitize yourself.

i would reccomend simply going over your dads head. i do it all the time and simply dont tell him and to all the arrogant jackasses who say you are overreacting, or it isnt that big a deal, etc, they are simply ignorant. i see people like them on a daily basis. but yeah, just go over your dads head. m dad was physically verbally (but thankfully not sexually) abusive till i stabbed him with a couple of my thinber knives ( i love knives- especially stiletto blades think enough to pass through a pair of human ribs) then he just left me alone and overall feared me. but i live in inner city chicago, you probrolly would have repercussions, depending on where you live, your frame of mind, etc. but CPD never was informed so thats luckey.

Just painting over permanent marker (sharpies) will not remove them from your wall. Thats probably why your dad didn't listen to you, if you just paint over permanent marker, it will simply come through the paint. You would need to sand them off, prime the wall, and then paint it, thats 2 different types of paint, and the time of sanding it.

Ethanol (alcohol) will remove permanent marker pretty easily, see if you can buy some high % alcohol, if you can't, buy some isopropyl alcohol (rubbing alcohol), or acetone (nail polish remover). These would probably destroy your wall and require you paint over it anyways, but at least if you use alcohol first you wont be wasting your time (again, just painting over permenant marker will not remove it, it will just come through the coat of paint you just put on, you must remove the marker first).

Maybe you should stand back for a moment and consider the accusations/claims your making.

Do you really want your dad to die because he suggested a simpler solution to you?

Do you really want to murder your brother because he did something terribly mean to you?

If yes, i'm sorry to say it but you'd be a serious danger to yourself and to others, and should be institutionalized immediately. I don't mean to be mean or rude, but wishing harm on others is NOT OK, and bothers me immensely to hear ! (even if your a total stranger to me). Your brother deserves a swift kick in the ass for doing something that would antogonize your condition, but murder? uh, NO