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When someone you care about hurts and you can't fix it

Letting down people I care about. I was asked to do a few extra things this week that involved public speaking, and I made some mistakes. Today was the biggest one. It was because something unexpected happened that others could have probably adjusted to, but I just plummeted on with my tunnel vision. No one really said anything, but I felt bad. In general, I hate letting people down. People tend to think I can handle more than I can - well, I can handle some stuff well, but I guess....I can get tripped up by the most basic of common sense kind of things, like sequencing, just really basic stuff that other people have down automatically....so I come off as just being really stupid even if I can do some more advanced stuff well. I wish I could perform well. I wish I could remember to focus better.

- Due to an increase in my savings, my benefits have now decreased.

- My housemate expects me to pay £14.50 each month for the TV licence. It's infuriating because I have the TV on for no longer than 45 minutes each week. I could quite easily live there without a licence as I predominantly watch DVDs.

- My housemate borrowed money from me yesterday. I am worried he will begin to exploit my inability to say "no".

- Unless I return to an academic arena to improve upon my qualifications, I cannot possibly comprehend how anyone is ever going to employ me. But I am still to identify what area of study is right for me. I am deeply envious of neurotypicals, who seamlessly blend in with their peers. One's ability to socialise should not be taken for granted. My incompetency in this regard has destroyed my life.

tension headache, neck pain and i have tickets tomorrow to a piano concert with no one interested to take.

my animation ended up fine but it was shot in a room where people were constantly opening and closing the door, resulting in a jarring flashing effect.

mother.

I was reading some of Swedish Got Talent winner and singer Zara Larsson's tweets. I really love her music, but this and this has cost her a fan (me). She's only 18 years old, and she's already another one of those misandrists trying to establish herself as a "feminist" (she can't be joking, because she makes too many posts of social media with hashtags like #misandry<3, #manhating<3 or whatever for it to just be a joke). For me, those tweets are cold slaps in the face for and total embarrassment to all her fans. Totally not supporting her now.

^ yeah, because hating men is the cool think to do now. all is about race and gender.

i feel like i have cornea problems again. totally freaking me out.

mother.

My mum made me unhappy to the point of rebellion.

sun roasted as well angry, in that my mom become angry with my vr-vocational rehab counselor for no reason at all..

lost my kewl round red glasses.

What makes me unhappy today is how I've been treated like my intellectual skills mirror those of one whose iq level is around 70-79..

Nothing.

Thinking about group work, what I'm going to do with my life... Thinking about Mulder

But, one needs more corporations both large and small to hire such potential employees and I don't mean simply tech companies nor placing such employees in menial positions either!!

I'm tired. Too tired to stay awake. Too tired to finish anything.