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I am tired today.

The b***h who scammed me out of 280 Dollars last August is now out of jail on parole. I'm not going to get my groove back and I'm not going to trash my German helmets just so she won't recognize me. I'm going to keep wearing my helmets and my German shirts and I'm going to order a personal alarm from Amazon or Wish. Amazon would be better. The alarm would arrive twice as soon.

anxiety.

I am totally confused

I am living in an X Files

I literally am having trouble putting the pieces together,

At a min, back in Jan 2015, the medical staff in the area dropped the ball and didn't have me mentally cleared before institutionalizing me. I lose a lot of memory and cognitive ability, then I get hacked, the gov crawls all over the place and it just doesn't make any damn sense. Why would the gov insinuate they wanted here over Jan 2015, hack my computer in 2017, then turn around and just place the blame on me? Was the whole thing a setup and if so why am I hated so? Torture me in 2015 and then use hacking as probable cause to spy on me? I mean what the hell? And yes I use the word torture, at a min, there was something seriously physically wrong with me, and worse, it was torture

I woke up in a panic this morning.

I'm stressed by everyday life, answering to others, I want time out, solitude, escape and I feel bad about taking it. I'll have to justify taking time out for myself, it's a vicious circle where I start seeing the people in my life as jailers. It's not a crisis, I'm just wound up and it might help to have a little whinge. I'm spending to much time on my computer and its sunny outside.....I'd better do something about it

The DVLA have written to me to tell me I can't drive anymore because of my anti-depressants.

I woke up. I swear that happens to me every day!

I agreed to go out and see a friend, which is rare for me. She didnt let me get a word in edgewise even though I was trying my best to communicate. She kept cutting me off or saying "let's change the subject".

Epic fail.

Spent 6 hours in the ER and was told I am starting to have QT prolongation

My meds I rely on are affecting my heart. I am so sick of this defective piece of trash body I am a prisoner in.

Yesterday I sent an email to a site I had ordered Haldol/Haloperidol from 4 weeks ago cuz it hasn't come in & according to the tracking it hasn't even made it to the US yet. They replied a couple hours later & said that they've heard from lots of US customers who haven't received their orders. They said usually when the US post has glitches like this where they're slow to pick up things from them that it may take up to 40/45 days to revive my order. I have two weeks left of Haldol & it sometimes takes a week to come in after it makes it to the US. It usually only takes a couple weeks to make it here, a week & sometimes a little more to make it to the US & then about a week for the post to bring it to me. I would or ordered when I had two months left if I had known that it would take so long to come in this time cuz I'm worried I'll run out before it comes in. My parents are visiting this coming week so after they leave Vermont on Friday, if my Haldol hasn't made it to the US yet, I'll start taking half a dose.

Got my shoe caught in the rocks this morning, tripped over and skinned both knees and grazed one of my palms.

I ordered a couple supplements off Amazon a couple days ago. I selected the slow shipping speed so I would get a $1 credit for digital goods. The time frame given was the middle to end of this coming week. They shipped yesterday & I didn't check the tracking sense I figured I'd have time. The f#cking post-office delivered it this morning while I was asleep & left it by the font door which is rite near the sidewalk. I woke up a couple hours later & noticed I had a text from Amazon that it was delivered so I went downstairs & by no surprise at all it wasn't there cuz someone jacked it. I'm gonna reorder & get a refund from Amazon in a week or so but I hate going through this BS. I complained before about the post-office leaving things next to my door that got stolen but they don't give a flying f#ck. No wonder Trump wants to gut their funding.