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Using my EBT card to buy myself lunch earlier today.

I absolutely know that that is like, literally. I do hope your overall outcome does change, mine is no greater as, I'm currently unemployed though, in university but, where I live there is not a vast amount of autistic friendly employers;therefore, I'm hoping to eventually move in the next 12-24 months.

Anxiety.

The price for the textbook that I need for my Fall class being close to $230.

I’m still in the nursing home, it been over 5 weeks that I broke my ankle, I’m going CRAZY missing my cat, I feel like & I had a little anxiety, I been very emotional, crying & depressed, these people don’t care, I been very lonely too. I have a cold, someone gave it to me, I usually very careful with washing my hands & cleaning under my fingers nails. I wash my hands after I sneeze. In the nursing home, I can’t wash my hands, they put me in a diaper, cuz I can’t walk & my bladder issues I usually don’t get sick too much, I can get sick once a year or longer

I'm sorry kitty. Keep doing your exercises & whatever else they want you to do so you can heal as fast as possible. I'll get around to PMing you back soon(by the end of the week probably).

What made me & my girlfriend unhappy today(well yesterday now) is our a$$hole neighbor. We live in a townhouse apartment & the walls are very thin. Our neighbor listens to the the TV & music pretty loudly sometimes & he's been doing that since he moved in a few years ago. He has the bass on which goes rite trough the walls & my girlfriend has a stress illness & the sound can give her a headache & make her anxious in addition to p!sing her off. We normally tolerate the noise or just go upstairs so we don't have to hear it but Cass asks me to go over there & ask them to turn it down when it's really loud & she cant take it anymore. I've only went there a few times. The 1st time as soon as he answered the door he asked something like Is the music to loud?, which implied to me that he already suspected it was too loud so he was being inconsiderate by having it that high. Every time I've gone there I've tried to be polite & use worlds like Please, Thank You, & I try to collect myself a moment before I go to calm down so I don't sound like I have an attitude which I do have because going makes me anxious & the idea that I need to go in the 1st place cuz he's being inconsiderate ticks me off. I also mention it's the bass specially. Anyways I had to go there a few days ago cuz it sounded like there was a jet engine downstairs due to the bass. When he went to the door he didn't open it & just looked at me out the window & made a movement with his hand like he was turning a dial & I said loudly so he could hear me, Yes Please & I did say Thanx after. He turned it down like he had always done after I went there in the past. Anyways it was petty loud yesterday so I went over there & as soon as he opened the door he angrily said "I'm tired of people coming here asking me to turn my music down, especially you guys, it's not that loud in here listen". He's rite that it wasn't that loud because he had just turned it down before he came to the door. Cass heard the volume go down almost rite after I went out. He's retorted if he thought that was going to fool us. I tried to explain to him how loud the bass was but he slammed his door in my face. The volume got loud again shortly after I went in. Since he said people I'm thinking someone else had asked him to turn it down, most likely the neighbors on the other side of him. Multiple people wouldn't be asking him to turn it down in the 1st place if wasn't loud. I don't know why he said you guys like Cass had gone there too because she NEVER went to his door for anything, she always sends me due to her anxiety(I have anxiety too thou but I am technically considered her caretaker/live-in-aid so it really should be me who goes). If he has a problem with us about something, he should tell us instead of just keeping it to himself & getting angry. Maybe we should complain about this to our property management but they likely won't do anything & we're worried about him retaliating. Cass grew up in a neighborhood that hated her family & would do mean things to get back at her family for anything they didn't like even if it was something good that happened to her family. We're not sure what our current neighbor is capable of. He angrily yells as his daughter aLOT making her cry & he seems like the type that might get violent if he would get angry enough. We really need to get the f#ck out of here & we have been trying to get another place & are waiting to hear back about something.

^^^I hope you can get the H outta there ASAP.

Getting checked for a hernia. Which it turns out I don't have. But it's an examination I really hate having done.

Fighting with my NT partner while I'm crying, having an anxiety attack while he demands physical contact and eye contact.

It seems your being tormented greatly

It upsets me greatly that people can just lie.
I wish I had the guts to break up with him. I have to live with him until January. I think he is unaware of how manipulative and dishonest he is. He's been very emotional since I caught him out in many lies. It confuses me.

I got the rest of the day to myself so that helped.

He "demands" physical contact?! He "demands" anything at all? Please don't stay until January against your will. Please, please, please go home to your parents or to a friend or even to a shelter if need be. Undoing this mind-f*** will be very difficult as it is and prolonging the recovery will only make it harder for you to heal in the long term. Talk to someone now: your physician, an officer of law, anyone. Get this on record. Have an escape plan in place. Please don't allow this to continue as it is abuse, even if he is your boyfriend. We are all easily manipulated and the recovery is very challenging. PM me if you would like to chat.

Isabella

Ugh, that is miserable. When do you think you’ll be able to go home again?

I have heard so many actual accounts of spousal abuse from NT partners into their Autistic loved one that is literally makes me sick. I'll be honest in that, I've never been married;however, with what little knowledge and experience I've had with NT social scenarios I realize there is always the possibility of malignant elements to present though, not necessarily easily seen.In a most sincere yet honorable way of saying this, I hope your able to eventually find yourself serenity.

General Anxiety. Worrying about worries.

90 degrees Fahrenheit heat gave me a minor headache.