Just feeling this heavy feeling. To get started on the days meaningless activities is hard. I don't feel motivated to doing anything. I'm looking forward to dinner and drinking, but I at least have to shower before then. Also I should workout, but that feels impossible! Maybe I should go fishing for the first time this year. It could be nice, but I could also get restless. I have no energy, but restless enough so that I can't just relax. (Why do I use "I" so much when I write)
Or maybe I should wash the terrace. I'm quite close to done with my to do list, at least the things I have to do. What happens then...
Or maybe I should shower, drive to the grocery, by more coke, and just start drinking.
Maybe it's not so strange I feel like this really, there has been stress and things to do for almost a year now. And when you think about it, it's pretty amazing what I have accomplished.
Ok, I feel I could just go on rambling for ever, but it ends now.