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Mondays are now officially the worst day of the week for me.

^ If I had access to firearms I'd shoot the whole day down

Doctor etchiverri usually spent one hour with me. Today just 15 minutes . Had to wait an hour. And she called the psychiatrist.

Wellbutrin

Stop Zoloft

s**t

Tired of side effects

But she's so nice, it's hard to blame her


She didn't say anything about counseling or Julie Morris b***h






West point


No hope


36.


Shoe store invited me to job interview

Hurt from someone I knew and shown uncertainty.
Stupid campers w loud noises
Quiet hours.
Visitation.
Over-Stimulated
Feel like no one cares or thinks it matters, or people who hurt me on purpose.

Hurt from someone I knew and shown uncertainty.
Stupid campers w loud noises
Quiet hours.
Visitation.
Over-Stimulated
Feel like no one cares or thinks it matters, or people who hurt me on purpose.
Hard to find positives

^^^
I would love to have my son near me.
Oregon has more resources to help with
developmental disabilities even though
mental health sucks.
I also want to bring him far from my ex.
Also TN in Knoxville where I lived only has one shelter I could go to and it's worse than here. I just get really messed up and sometimes negative when I get triggered because of trauma.
I found some more resources today, but
have been on the verge of a meltdown 4 times.
I realize I miscommunicate at times too.
I wish I could camp (that it was legal).

If only there's a clearer view of this... The lines were edited to give it a clearer view of what is being drawn.
Shown this to some few, and they didn't knew it was a room.

Some weird attempt of depicting on how much sensory stimuli I kept receiving and where it came from.

And it's also far, far from complete.

It doesn't take account of many things other than the environmental current noise, lights, 'human presences' (not literally drawn as they are) or socially relevant anticipations to take account to, physical spaces, and other subtle sensations like wind or smell (not very visible in the drawing).
And because I only have, like, 5 color pencils available on hand.

Gained Number Post Count (1).
Lose Time (n).

Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

Do NTs think deeply the way aspies think or are they more prone to just responding to social cues and things in their environment? If the former then why is it socially taboo to write in long paragraphs? I cut down everything I write and it's usually still too long. Unless I'm tired or it's a load of nonsense I never mind reading long paragraphs.

I just want to be alone again after spending so much time with so many people i don't even feel close to. I hate staying in crowded places even more than being alone.

Job hunting but no motivation to actually fill out any applications, re-do my resume, and write cover letters.

My vision is still blurry and I plan to go back to work tomorrow, as I'm not falling asleep every five minutes today. My eye is still sore but less pain. Physically my eye is still a mess. xD

My daughter's first day of kindergarten tomorrow and I'm freaking out.

My back is so sore today, I sure do dislike being old at 29.

Met with a very strange guy who talked A LOT about the love of God and spiritual healing. He literally talked about this topic for hours in the middle of a super crowded beach! It was a very strange day!