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Aw I'm sorry Edna. Have a day to yourself and take it easy

I wonder if Joan Collins's head buttons up at the back

I'm excited to go to Oregon with my friends next Friday.

The other day I saw Disney Villain themed makeup at Walmart. It looked to me like it might be for everyday and not just for Halloween, but I'm not sure. I thought it looked pretty cool, but I hardly ever wear any kind of makeup anymore and I shouldn't buy something just because it has cool cartoon characters on the package.

I bet if I bought the cheaper pastel-coloured Halloween makeup I could wear it like regular makeup it I applied it lightly.

While my parents are sitting down to their ham and potato dinner, I'm sitting down to my stewed kale and chicken.

If Kraus and Schultz were to get married and have a child, that child would be me.

It's not a "day for myself" -- it's not mine, it's this body's.

If the day's mine, I'd be spending it playing games, or drawing, or even brainrot scrolling and get myself broke eating snacks; I'd take it, or going out elsewhere other than the damn bed, constantly sleepy and asleep 80%+ of the day.

So no... It's not a day for myself.

And there's no 'getting easy' either.
If this we're easy, I'd be relaxing voluntarily elsewhere, doing something else; things that I want and like.


This isn't even a rest. I'm not tired. I'm not ill. Didn't really tire days before, didn't ate anything wrong. Just PMSing into "laziness", "moodiness" and "fatigue".
It's just stupid hormones, giving me unwanted symptoms everyone expects every women to manage.

This week, mine is this daytime sleepiness. And I hate sleep.


If this life is mine, this is somewhere at top spots of the list I want to get rid of in my life for good.

I poured my last energy drink down the drain and got rid of any instant coffee that I had in my cupboards. If I'm going to wear German colours, I'm going to make peace with my tender German emotions.

I get you now

I would wear makeup if I didn't have to apply it myself. It's applying it that puts me off, as it feels like a boring demand, but I'd be happy to have it on if someone else did it for me each morning.

So there's some feminity in me somewhere. Lol

I hate my username here.

Personally, I don't like how makeup feels on my skin. I'm just hyper-aware of it and it takes so much willpower to not rub or scratch at it. Nail Polish is fine though, I don't mind it on my nails.

I still consider myself plenty feminine though.

I'm a tomboy. I was basically a boy when I was a teenager, well, in my head anyway. My periods just remind me of my womanhood. I hate being a woman sometimes.

When I was a teenager, I used to be bullied for that exact reason. I didn't present in a way that was socially acceptable. So, people used to say that I didn't count as a girl. They'd laugh and joke about it.

I was a closeted lesbian at the time, but no one quite bought the idea I was straight. Frankly people were making gay jokes about me before I even knew I was gay.

It's funny, really, because back then people were telling me 'You're too boyish to be straight' and now that I've been out for a while it's become 'You're too feminine to be gay'. Both statements are equally daft. You never can win with people, can you?

Yeah, I was bullied too at school, and criticised a bit at home. I wanted to ride my bike and build dens and stuff at 15 (something 15-year-old boys seemed to be allowed to do) but my mum said teenage girls look silly doing things like that, and that I should be clean and well-maintained. I would rather be exploring in the woods than go on a clothes shopping trip.
I even wore my brother's hand-me-downs often. Being a boy felt easier for me, because boys were allowed to be kids for longer.
Oh, but at least I was allowed to cry and nobody questioned that, yet whenever my brother cried he'd get yelled at. So I guess there are some good things about being a woman lol.

I remember when I was 11 I got called a lesbian because I got really obsessed with the female art teacher. The other girls at school would make jokes and express disgust at me. But I hadn't even developed any romantic feelings for anyone at that age. Those came when I was 13, and I seemed bi-curious during my early teen years but then turned out straight.

I got so annoyed with my periods and female stereotypes that I started wearing a German helmet 9 years ago. I had everything removed 7 years ago and I felt like my energetic, boyish self for the first time since I was 9.