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Just watched Dr. Seuss' How the Grinch Stole Christmas (Boris Karloff's voice is like magic to me)
It is followed by Frosty the Snowman
These are shows from my childhood. Like some of you, I saw the first showing on television.
Frosty was okay, but I never cared for his "Happy birthday" greeting.
But here is the best part! After Frosty, the Christmas festivities continues with Law and Order: Special Victims Unit.
That is quite the shift in mood.
------ a bit later ------
I decided to combine the Frosty and Law & Order SVU vibe by changing to FRNDLY and watching what's on the grio channel. The Cosby Show

That's what I'm watching right now.

Stove top, hamburger helper, rice a roni

Love, affection recognition belonging

Safety security stability

Semantics pragmatics linguistics

Precision of language

Paucity of content

Enchiladas pizza taco burrito pupusas

I've reached a plateau in my weight loss. I feel like a fat, smelly German pig.

I don't mind germs so much, the sort that can't really affect you via the air and can easily be washed away by washing your hands. But viruses are a different matter. They get into your body by breathing the air. Even wearing a mask doesn't reassure me, not after knowing that masks don't protect you, it only protects you if the people with the virus are wearing them. And you can't really expect elderly people with vomiting bugs to wear masks lol.

I don't know if I toe-walked as a child. I don't think I did at home but I just have this feeling I might have done in PE class when we were doing PE in the school hall/gym in barefoot. I don't know. But for a sociable girl with no special interests or anything, I was diagnosed pretty early.
I do envy Aspies of my generation that slipped through the cracks growing up and didn't realise they were autistic until adulthood. I don't mean those who were treated like they were "backward" through school (as I understand that could be just as traumatising), but I mean those who were just the shy kid at the back of the room, perhaps rather mysterious but just got on with it.
I guess this brings us to the link in my signature, which explains why I find it so frustrating that I was diagnosed so early and that I know my social life could have been different had I not known I had this label that separated me from the other kids more than the disorder itself did, as in many ways really I was just another normal kid.

I do sometimes wonder if it would really have been better if I was diagnosed sooner... Some issues would have been prevented. There has been discussion some mistakes were made and I should have been discovered, even during 80s and a bit outside modern civilization. In short, I did not 'just' get on with things...
I would have ended up in buso (our special education)... while technically in the group that should go trough regular schooling but with specialized support, no schools have that budget or experience. Not now, not back then. And they do build schools especially for this group... that shouldn't be segregated... which I should regard as something good...
While struggling with the diagnosis and also these things on my head, a school (within that group) made headlines for teachers bullying and making fun of autistic children. In the end... police inquiry... nothing illegal happened. It is ok then...
I do not think it is a benefit to be different in any way, certainly not during school...

I do still have highschool nightmares. I graduated with apparently a not so uncommon form of PTSD. But I did graduate. Barely. That piece of paper is required for my current job. (They are changing qualifications but slow process). If I had been transferred to buso, the one doing my job now would make my life impossible next year. That bit of paper saved me. Now I can get to drinks celebrating how well we performed implementing social reforms...

Problem is we are not braindead and while some pros do not agree, we do have feelings. Therapist told me 'you are on the brighter side of the IQ scale' but to be honest, the best bit is in the middle. Just normal. People don't appreciate how easy they have it with a whole world made for them.

I feel this so strongly, MartineRomy.

The best bits of school for me were the bits I spent hiding in the toilets. Children were hostile, teachers were hostile. I think the innocence of childhood belongs to children who fit in. These days I love kids and get along well with teenagers but I would never sentimentalise. I didn't get the bit of paper and at various times it has been exceedingly inconvenient.

Happy current employer is slowly revising it as a requirement. To get higher position I would need universe degree but have been higher and prefer it down here...
Many previous employers didn't need it but ICT did change a lot in only 25 years. Especially easier to get started if you are not too well gifted in selling yourself. First unix team I was one of only 2 with it degree and only few between other it teams. Baker, butcher, an actual lumberjack, historian, japanologist, ...

One thing I've appreciated about having to fumble through is that you meet interesting people. Lovely people, breathtakingly brilliant people (brilliant in all sorts of ways) who just never fit the system. I was silly in how I approached the task of finding a different path but it was worth it for the people.

I can't believe how down on myself I was yesterday because I hit a two month plateau.

You were very hard on yourself, CockneyRebel.

And that's a lot to have on one's mind, shortfatbalduglyman.

A need to go to the gym, but a need to complete a homework assignment first.

I haven't been to the gym in almost a week and my mom likes to make me feel bad about it.

Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer is my favourite Christmas show. Rudolph's a misfit and I'm a misfit.

I am thinking about an efficient way of building Magic the Gathering decks that work on multiple levels in terms of offense and defense, something to beat OS and YS when we play.

I know this is a game, but this isn't about the game. It is about what is on my mind right now. Maybe the stuff in the spoilers should have been places in the games threads, but that was just me providing context to what is on my mind right now.

I almost watched this tonight, but PBS had Leonardo da Vinci by Ken Burns.
And as far as misfits are concerned, we are so glad for you company.

LeBeau and Newkirk remind me of my sister and I when we were younger. They're always squabbling.