I don't really care for this strangely protective nature people seem to have over Autism, as if it's some sort of exclusive club. After all, I've never heard people bickering over who is or isn't more schizophrenic or bipolar. I have myself experienced people who have little idea about Autism claiming I don't have it and scolding me for being melodramatic, and it is extremely irritating. My parents didn't notice I had it, which just goes to show how subtle and difficult to define it can be. Even now, when people ask "So, what does it mean, having Autism?", I find myself floundering and unable to tell them exactly. Admittedly, this is partly because I am socially bumbling and inept, but it is also because there are so very many things that it means, and none of them are easily explained.
When I watched the series of America's Next Top Model with Heather Kuzmich in it, I didn't think "Oh, what rot - she's fine" - that seems rather an arrogant attitude to take. I thought she was brave and I thought how hard it must have been for her. I don't find the idea of modelling a very laudable one in a moral sense, but I certainly couldn't do all the travelling she had to do and interact with those screechy girls without becoming extremely stressed and unhappy. The part where she became faint and had to come out of the music video shoot was exactly what would have happened to me in the same situation, which I think is due to being unable to process the sensory stimulus in the same way that most other people do, so that it becomes overwhelming. I was once at a Morrissey concert, and found myself doing the exact same thing as Heather was doing - that is, crouching in the corner, dizzy and faint from all of the noise and light.
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"I'd go further - I'd say 'Life is wasted on . . . people.'"
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