I realised why the sole reason I was considering going was never about you, or even about me, really.
I just needed to know that somebody aside from me actually cared about him. Wanted him. Was willing to claim him as their own. Actually gave some part of a damn about him. Plenty of people gave a damn about me (everyone else but you), but nobody apart from me, ever gave a damn about him. You were the only person who actually should have. And you didn't. And it isn't my job to forgive you for that, only he can.
It was never about the money. It was simply about knowing if you actually ever gave half a f*ck about him.
Because you were never even sad at all. Not once did you cry. Afterwards you still made me do everything myself. Three days later and even a week later you were telling me to get the hell over it already. You haven't expressed, at all, any regret, not even the tiniest amount - not physically, not emotionally, not even mentally. Nor have you at very least paid the financial arrangement - which you not only agreed to - but were in fact the one to offer it to start with. Even the bare minimum you did not bother to do. It's not like you don't have the money. You also have my contact details. But just nothing - not then and not now. I probably shouldn't be surprised.
No I am not going. If it was up to me I would never see your face again.
Get out of my life and stay out. The last person I would want like that is you.
And if you ever decide you want to be my "friend" that is only going to happen after you pay, apologise about the entire thing, and actually express sincere regret and f*cking mean it. If you don't have the guts to be a halfway decent person who keeps their word then there is no way in hell you will never be my friend.
Thank you for leaving me - it was the best thing you ever did.
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