meditation is working!
This final year of school is an unbelievably stressful time for me--knew it was coming, been preparing over the last couple of year in a number of ways. Eating reasonably healthy, sleeping well, daily exercise and yoga. Over the past month or so, I've started meditating. At first it was frustrating and it kind of felt like a chore to do, but over the past week or something changed.
Hard to explain--it was like I realized what I was doing wrong and then it got easier to clear my mind and focus. So I've been doing it several times a day because it's started to be enjoyable. And then this morning it just clicked--twenty minutes of this wonderful feeling. When I finally opened my eyes, this super happy long forgotten memory from childhood just popped into my head, like it had been waiting for the right mental state to trigger it, and it made me smile. For the next hour, the feeling of calm stayed with me--like there had been even more anxiety and stress weighing me down than I had even been aware of and could only note it by its sudden absence. It sounds kind of cheesy, but there's no other way for me to describe it.
I am a chump for not getting serious about meditation sooner. And yes, so are you!
EDIT: The reason I started meditation in the first place was because there is some very convincing scientific data that confirms what Buddhists have been saying for years. Here is a review article for anyone who needs non-anecdotal motivation: http://brainimaging.waisman.wisc.edu/~l ... s_2008.pdf
Has anyone else tried meditation?
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Congratulations, you're one of us now.
I also noticed a lot of buried stuff popping up from my subconcious when I first got serious about it.
The initial calm and peace and feeling of revelation is nice. There can be rough patches ahead. Bear it in mind. Feel free to PM me if you'd like some support.
Keep it up. ![]()
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Some time ago I had incredible results with tai-chi and meditation. I'll do it again, just waiting an opportunity to re-start it seriously.
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Thanks, guys!
Moog--I'm glad to hear there will be rough patches ahead; if it were easy I'd worry it was the early onset of psychosis instead of the result of effort. I've got plenty of reading material to guide and inspire me along the way, but if I get stuck you'll be the first person I consult with. How far out do most people get before they run into a serious problem? Also, I'm considering going to a local Buddhist temple when they have their weekly service in English--think it would be worth it?
Moog--I'm glad to hear there will be rough patches ahead; if it were easy I'd worry it was the early onset of psychosis instead of the result of effort. I've got plenty of reading material to guide and inspire me along the way, but if I get stuck you'll be the first person I consult with. How far out do most people get before they run into a serious problem? Also, I'm considering going to a local Buddhist temple when they have their weekly service in English--think it would be worth it?
Hi. Yes, I think it's worthwhile getting involved with Buddhist communities, you can learn a good deal. But some of them are better than others. Some Buddhists just hang out together as a social exercise, and aren't actually interested in doing the work.
Your experience correlates closely with mine. After several years on and off of trying to meditate, I hit on an instruction that worked, and I realised I was 'doing it'.
I don't want to program your experience by telling you what comes next, but there are maps and models of the 'path' that are generally thought of to be accurate and useful. Daniel Ingram's excellent and freely available book Mastering the Core Teachings of the Buddha contains sections devoted to maps and models of the path.
http://web.mac.com/danielmingram/iWeb/D ... chive.html
When you hit the rough patches, that means you're really cooking, so don't get discouraged.
But for now, I would just work on consolidating whichever meditation technique you are following, and make your own insights.
I'll post a couple of resources from teachers who I think are very good.
Kenneth Folk - http://kennethfolkdharma.wetpaint.com/
Shinzen Young - http://www.youtube.com/user/expandcontract#p/p
May you find the happiness independent of conditions.
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I heard a lot of good things about mediatation actually works for a lot of people which I find really surprisingly, I thought about doing it ages ago but I thought it just can't possibly work, but yea, you somehow convinced me that it could. ![]()
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Well worth doing. I've been meditating for 30 years now. I do Shikantaza Zen meditation. There are several different types of meditation so it is important to experiment a little and find an approach that works best for you. For example I can't do any meditation incorporating counting / watching breaths etc since I have an OCD / stim of counting all the time anyway (hence my name TallyMan). I was born counting breaths!
Meditation helps you in several semi-related ways. Firstly it can help you to relax more fully than with any other activity and secondly it can give you insight into the nature and functioning of your mind (and deeper but that is beyond the scope of this thread). The opening up and witnessing of mental activity can help to eliminate the negative traits that have built up during your lifetime. This can help you to function more effectively and generally be a happier person.
My friend Booyakasha also meditates daily, she finds it helpful.
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Astral projection and meditation are very different things.
One of the colloquial terms used for an enlightened being is 'super enjoyer', free from ignorance and hindrance, delighting in all things. It is said that the experience of one who is awake is utterly exquisite. I believe this, because I've had a taste.
It is my belief that sexual enjoyment and spiritual advancement are not necessarily incompatible.
So, there may still be enjoyment in floating around in the women's gym, but there may be no 'you' there to do so.
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But for now, I would just work on consolidating whichever meditation technique you are following, and make your own insights.
I'll post a couple of resources from teachers who I think are very good.
Kenneth Folk - http://kennethfolkdharma.wetpaint.com/
Shinzen Young - http://www.youtube.com/user/expandcontract#p/p
May you find the happiness independent of conditions.
That's the thing, I'm not really sure what technique it is because I sort of gave up on the instructions I'd read and tried something different. I've been just sort of making things up as I go along. Is that bad? Now that I think about it, maybe reprogramming my own brain haphazardly isn't such a good idea... But I never follow directions and stray from the path at the earliest opportunity. That's just the way I am, and it's worked fairly well until this point.
Hmm... That's a definite quandary. But I guess that's why they call it mental discipline...
Okay, so tell me if this is something close to a real technique that won't scramble my brains like eggs:
What I'd been doing wrong was sort of fighting to keep out sound--auditory over-stimulation is a huge issue for me and it was necessary for me to just let it in freely and actually sort of reach out to it, too. Full throttle auditory stream, and other senses as well.
I've still been doing the counting breaths one, too, except I see the number instead of counting verbally in my head.
Watch, I'll start giving myself seizures or something, haha!
What you describe above is closer to Shikantaza meditation where you open up and become aware of not only the information arriving through your senses but the activity within your mind too. It requires great alertness and attentiveness. It may be that this is your natural inclination.
The majority of meditation works in the opposite manner by focussing and narrowing attention either on breathing, a mantra or a point of light or other mental object.
Both approaches are valid and both lead to a similar meditative state, it is just that some people find one easier than the other.
Sound can be a problem for me too sometimes, especially if the sound is loud and intermittent such as vehicle alarms. In those instances I wear industrial ear defenders, they make the noise level manageable.
Don't worry, you won't fry your brain.
Krishnamurti gives a clear and concise instruction in Meditation that is more akin to the Shikantaza approach here, though he doesn't call it such:
(J. Krishnamurti had the following dialogue with students at one of his schools in India.)
Krishnamurti: Do you know anything about meditation?
Student: No, Sir.
Krishnamurti: But the older people do not know either. They sit in a corner, close their eyes and concentrate, like school boys trying to concentrate on a book. That is not meditation. Meditation is something extraordinary, if you know how to do it. I am going to talk a little about it.
First of all, sit very quietly; do not force yourself to sit quietly, but sit or lie down quietly without force of any kind. Do you understand? Then watch your thinking. Watch what you are thinking about. You find you are thinking about your shoes, your saris, what you are going to say, the bird outside to which you listen; follow such thoughts and enquire why each thought arises. Do not try to change your thinking. See why certain thoughts arise in your mind so that you begin to understand the meaning of every thought and feeling without any enforcement. And when a thought arises, do not condemn it, do not say it is right, it is wrong, it is good, it is bad. Just watch it, so that you begin to have a perception, a consciousness which is active in seeing every kind of thought, every kind of feeling. You will know every hidden secret thought, every hidden motive, every feeling, without distortion, without saying it is right, wrong, good or bad. When you look, when you go into thought very very deeply, your mind becomes extraordinarily subtle, alive. No part of the mind is asleep. The mind is completely awake.
That is merely the foundation. Then your mind is very quiet. Your whole being becomes very still. Then go through that stillness, deeper, further – that whole process is meditation. Meditation is not to sit in a corner repeating a lot of words; or to think of a picture and go into some wild, ecstatic imaginings.
To understand the whole process of your thinking and feeling is to be free from all thought, to be free from all feeling so that your mind, your whole being becomes very quiet. And that is also part of life and with that quietness, you can look at the tree, you can look at people, you can look at the sky and the stars. That is the beauty of life.
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Time and research and experience will tell you when you're doing something right. Your first post suggests that you got something, because I felt instinctively that you'd been somewhere I'd been.
There's a page long Insight instruction here from Daniel Ingram:
http://www.interactivebuddha.com/Insigh ... 20size.pdf
Developing some concentration with samatha or concentration practice is a good idea too:
http://web.mac.com/danielmingram/iWeb/D ... CE470.html
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Thank you, guys! I appreciate the helpful links and the suggestions--you're saving me a lot of time. There's just so much information out there, it's hard to know where to begin.
It seems to me that the sensory issues that go along with autism would make meditation particularly beneficial, but now I'm wondering if it doesn't give us an advantage as well. Maybe because of the childlike curiosity that seems so common among those of us who aren't currently mired in depression? Or maybe because monotropism requires greater levels of focus and attention. Interesting subject for research.
The last few sessions haven't been quite so dramatically orgasmic, but to be honest this is perfectly fine with me because the first one was so good it made the cynical part of me wonder briefly if it was the beginning of a psychotic episode. I mean, there weren't even any drugs involved and it's not like I've been doing it for a long time. Probably doing yoga for the last couple of years is what helped the meditation kick in so quickly.
How long do most people have to do it regularly before they notice the effects? Why aren't more people doing it? It feels like I've stumbled upon a money tree, but nobody else wants to stuff their pockets with bills. "Hey guys? It's free money, right here. No really, it's free, plenty for everyone..."

Of course!