Frustration at the world

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I'm writing here so I can vent mostly, though I'd appreciate feedback and opinions (which, of course, may make dealing with frustration slightly easier). But, has anyone noticed how the world is built around restrictions? Not sensible ones, like "don't go over the edge of the cliff or you'll die", more personal ones. They're more subtle, although in advanced stages institutions are built around them. What happens then is that, practically, if others (other than the self, which may complicate things) aren't as adapt as the self (yourself, myself) they block you, whether that's through rules (as institutions) or on a personal, subjective level (denial, dismissal, rejection).

So, a prime example of this would be the education system. I don't know if it really ever works well for people who are 'good at it' (which is how the system sees it; in reality, it's all about passions and real, accentuated interests, rather than superficial desires to 'get the grades'). But, what I think happens is simply the hammering down of anyone who stands out compared to peers. Not to mention the destruction of any genuine interest in academic subjects - or at least this happens in most common schools. I assume, for those who really want to excel (who have a reputation to keep up with) different methods are employed to truly elicit the students' capabilities.

On a personal level (myself), I always made the utmost effort to be recognized... and where has that led me? Well, back when I was still sane (in secondary school) I was simply dismissed as being a fraud, or any other number of excuses (or simply rejected altogether, with none of the commentary). A specific example would be the writing of essays; everyone in my class admitted that they sucked (through modesty I said nothing, of course) - the only way I could show that I can actually write (like I'm doing now) is to write, obviously, and that's what I did. But even at this one moment, where I wrote a lengthy, detailed essay, I was actually accused of copying it off somewhere. Not that the teacher provided evidence, but it was simply a feeling, an instinct. That is where it died, and probably my mental health along with it. After all, why would I be in this school whose students are so accepting of being called 'ret*ds' (may have been another noun, but generally every single teacher seemed to enjoy telling us how much we sucked when it comes to academics). And I'm stuck there, between the nonsensical inbreeding of Scylla and Charybdis (all this dysfunctional management).

This has been my case in secondary school, but ever since I've noticed a clear pattern in the entire education system, so I'm sure it's not isolated. It seems the only way you can really be given the right feedback and be allowed to grow (because the main, key point of all this was the issue of having my advancement stunted, not even simply not helped - school being mandatory wasted all my time I could have spent becoming even more knowledgeable than I am now, e.g.) is if your 'guardians' (parents, friends, any helpful social networking which I've been unfortunate enough to miss out on) would simply fight this institutional nonsense (if they had the capability to do so with modern currency, or even willingness (which mine not only didn't have, but like these systems were actually harmful)). And then, of course, you grow up and it evolves into a mandatory brokenness of a life.

Hope someone around here would put up with this rant, and hopefully not as being arrogant.

I get what you mean.

I know this one person who earned a BS at 18. Genius, right? Except no, this person is utterly incapable of independent thought. She is, however, really, really good at regurgitating whatever's put into her head.

I know another person who dropped out of high school, then went to college for a while (MIT, I believe), then left there too. He went on to make some apparently amazing innovations with computer chips (I never really understood what he was talking about, but people who did seemed impressed ).

So yeah, that's the education system in a nutshell. It's not entirely worthless, but they sure seem to try really hard at making it so.

Zen, even if it was just worthless it wouldn't matter so much (many things are that don't fundamentally affect my life, some crappy TV dramas for example, but I simply don't watch them) - this thing has screwed up with my life majorly though, to say the least due to the brilliant idea of having it mandatory (I can understand the possible reasoning one may have, but if a country/state has utterly dysfunctional institutions, which will inevitably happen when you have such an amount of establishments, then forcing it on young children (an age where development is highly critical) is, I would say, analogous to being raped. Not literally, but undeniably - over a much longer period, nonetheless, very consistently). This is how I feel anyway, and more importantly I can translate it rationally. I was merely at the whim of these institutions in the past, though, and like in any violent situation (robbery etc. or even parents being abusive as mine were) neither discussion, nor emotion would usually release the suffocating hold.