Im 44 and was diagnosed at 40. I feel far more confident since my diagnosis but I think after high school after a few years, after I had my first three kids and went to school I liked myself a lot more. I didnt feel "stupid" anymore. I felt like i could really.....like my teachers always said.....do whatever I put my mind to!
I think High School was really very torturous for me. I had a lot of really bad bullies but my senior year I think I went through an angry phase and started being very disrespectful to my teachers, getting drunk or high during lunch sometimes and saying things to my teachers that I regret now. It all started around the middle of the year, we had a wonderful art teacher and she was helping me with a painting. It was so good and because it was a member of Duran Duran (my obsession at the time), some of the boys thought it would be funny to spray paint over my painting, that took me weeks to make perfect. My art teacher had to leave right before as her husband was transferred and I know she would have made sure that the other kids who did it were punished but we had another teacher. When i saw my painting I turned around and saw some boys laughing and I lost it and threw my painting at them and said some things, I dont even remember.
Then, of course, I was the bad one. The teacher sent me to the principal but I got in my car and drove home and it took my parents about a month to get me back to school. I dont know why they let me graduate but maybe they were tired of me
. I did not get good grades and my art teacher who left had seen my painting and told me it was an A which would have given me my only A but the other nasty b**ch refused as it was spray painted over. I called her names and she sent me to the office again. I tried to explain and my principal said he understood but that the other teacher said she never saw the painting so unless I did another one I would get a D as that was my big end of the year project. I refused.....I just didnt care anymore.
Bullies suck!