felinesaresuperior wrote:
Hey, i thought i was the only one this happened to! seriously.
so glad you wrote this. i was hypnotized by nature and animals. i would look at swaying branches fascinated, in a state of mild hypnosis. the sunrays pouring golden through branches. swaying objects and blinking lights - aspie paradise.
i lived for those sights. they are the strongest memories of my childhood, especially the bluish mountain that came toward me as my parents drove me to my grandparents, and their house that's kinda half rural, or whatever, the birds songs and occasional cows, the hedgehoge and turtle we saw once, and the feral cats in my parents' yard.
i started losing it age nine, and by ten or eleven just didnt have it anymore. dont believe in taking drugs, though. you just have to walk and look at nature and try to recapture this feeling.
Interesting. Yeah, I had a great interest in everything drug related for some time but then I began to get paranoid about all kinds of things and I don't have much interest in it anymore. But I sometimes ponder whether I'm gonna become a criminal again and obtain some weed. Especially right now, as my mind feels like a frozen desert.