Liresse wrote:
music distracts me hugely and I absolutely cannot focus on anything if there is any music in the background. I've been able to throw away my speakers even though I have a digital music collection because that's just the best and wisest thing for me to do. (if i am going through a rough patch i will generally try and do something to solve the rough patch, rather than sit listening to music...isn't that how we get out of the rough patch? not sure if that's what you mean.)
but music is very emotive for me. If I had nothing to do in the world, I'd love to listen to it all day. (the same song, generally). I cry to songs very easily. i am also a singer of various styles, and my fiance is a graduate in Music (Composition), plays various instruments, and teaches one of them commercially.
Music is fantastic, but for me it's so emotive and attention-grabbing that it's actually quite dysfunctional and unhelpful most of the time (since most of the time I don't have "nothing to do").
did that make sense? haha.
I am very much like you - music "moves" me too much to be listened to publicly. Whenever I listen to music, dance and pop in particular, I feel an uncontrollable urge to get up and begin spinning, or to just start moving in general. Although, while I do listen to it less frequently than I do pop and dance, listening to Classical and more aesthetically-based genres can elicit an even stronger response, involving my heart beat being raised to sky-scrapper heights and me pulling my hair. Psychosomatically, it is very similar to an anxiety attack. The difference between the two being that I actually enjoy the sensation; it is comparable to how religious people describe their revelations.