Droopy wrote:
ShirtPuppet wrote:
I do a lot of monologuing and pacing. That's how I stim. When I'm alone, I monologue almost always...if someone is there that I am unaware of, and they catch me I get so embarrassed! I know talking to myself, including asking myself questions and then answering them is not normal, and that I am only PRETENDING that a person I'm picturing in my head associated with my topic is not really there, but I get powerful feelings as I have all my life from stimming like this!
That's what I do...lol. Yeah, if someone catches me I just KNOW they're going to think I'm psycho.
I do this, too. I try not to do it when other people are around, but if I am just too caught up in the process I can't help myself. (People DO think you're pyscho.)
I have a "weird" routine when I write, apparently, but it tends to get me stellar results so I don't really care what people think.
So I was writing a paper for my econ class (on property rights and the importance of a legal system that supports them) in the library. My laptop was set up, my iPod was plugged in to my nice stereo headphones, which were firmly planted on my ears, and I was rocking out to Handel's Water Music. And when I say "rocking out," I mean it; I was pacing back and forth, muttering to myself about
Poletown while conducting an invisible orchestra. Usually, I write in my room to avoid embarassing myself, but it wasn't possible that day. [sarcasm]Amazingly enough, though, I had that corner of the library all to myself until I decided to go home.[/sarcasm] People would come in, take a look at me, and then find a table far away. I found out later from a friend who happened to be in the library that day that she had to tell people (a) I was a genius, (b) I was Autistic, and (c) I wasn't crazy, I was just different. She said it was the word "autism" that got them to stop being a**holes. (Apparently, there were small groups of people just staring.) It could have been a disaster.
Moral of the Story: If you've got to "be weird" in public, you've got to not care what others think, and it always helps to have a friend to cover your back.
(I got a decent grade on the paper. It wasn't my best work since 13 pages isn't enough to cover what I consider to be the decline and fall of Western Civilization, but oh well. That shall be my magnum opus.)
Note: When I say "genius," I mean she said it to explain my quirky behavior, and that when coupled with "autism" got people to back off. I mean, I technically am a genius, but IQ tests just kind of measure one's ability to take IQ tests IMHO.)
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