Triggers for Meltdowns

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I really can't handle being yelled at; it makes me very upset and then the waterworks start. That's why I've spent my life avoiding any situation that would make someone yell at me. Since I can't be sure other people don't see being yelled at as a mark of pure hatred as I do subconsciously, I have only yelled at one person in the last 15 years (and she deserved it).

I fly into a screaming smashing rage when
someone yels at me, I spit, throw things
and scream as loud as I can, stamp kick
slam break something if its there.

They have to callthe ambulance and have
them inject me with a sleep medicine
to stop me unless I just burn out and
shut down from power drain.

Do these soundsalso make you snort?

All of the above.

And a story from this morning ...

We have people painting our house this week so we can sell it, because we're emigrating to Canada in a couple of months.

This morning I was so worried that my dogs would get out due to the carelessness of the painters (talk about projecting my insecurities on innocent people), that I lost it when my automatic gate remote didn't work and I couldn't get out to go to work. I literally was so upset I couldn't think of how to solve the problem (disable the automatic motor and open the gate manually).

I had a tantrum with myself and almost broke my phone by throwing it. (I used to do that in the old days, but I like my iPhone so I decided to give myself some time to calm down.)

Then I wrote "shouting" SMSes to my better half, which helped blow off steam. The last response was "why don't you just open the gate manually?" and I was even more angry with myself for not thinking about such an obvious thing.

It's really silly now, but I was in a blind rage this morning .

*sigh* Stress ... Who needs it?

O. Ok it was un-bearable.

It is so strange with me how some noises
will make me bang the wall or table, or
make a loud snort. I never sort that out.

For me, they tend to happen when I am stressed out about something that is usually completely unrelated and then something like a loud noise or hearing people yell will trigger the meltdown.

When I feel like I'm not being treated as an individual
People being judgmental or bigoted in certain ways
Being criticized

These are probably nothing unique:
Sudden changes (esp. school years starting/moving back and forth between college and home), eating routine disruptions, certain textures (esp. when I have dry skin), and embarrassing moments that I think would be pretty minor for most people (like tripping when I walk, getting a question wrong or saying something out of turn).

I don't know if you can even call my reaction a "meltdown" because I've trained myself to be very introverted. But I'm definitely losing it on the inside.

Hostile behaviour from people I know, too much change in things I use that are meant to be constant. I was shaking and I dissociated when the Pokemon sun and moon out and certain features that have been consistent in old games were removed or were different. I was actually happy about the changes but it was too much to process and I had to sleep it off and not play the game for a day before I could move on. I still have to take frequent breaks from gameplay because the changes still upset me despite the fact that I recognise them as good changes.

Deadlines are a major trigger for me. The closer the date the more prone I am to having a meltdown.

Long-term stress, and emotional overload lead to violent meltdowns.

Loud noises, crowds, and strobe lights lead to shutdowns.

One of my major triggers is people using grammar wrong. I know it sounds silly, but it is.

This thread is almost SEVEN-years-old----NOT that it's not still relevant; it's just that if you're quoting someone, thinking that they'll respond to you, they may not.