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Wow, I sometimes don't get off the internet when I want to do something else instead. I'd probably be playing Mario Kart Wii this second.

I'm having this in a more generalised sense. I'm feeling depressed and listless and spending all my time on the computer. I'm trying to channel that constructively by looking up classes and short courses, but I'm having trouble finding things I can get to that I'm interested in.

There's bellydancing, but I'm not sure I want it. I know there's fire twirling somewhere, but I can't find it. And also a friend is doing firetwirling, and I'd prefer to have my own hobby - if that makes sense.

*sigh* I just can't get off my butt and I'm not really interested in anything..

I think when you are feeling uninspired, as I often am, or overburdened by life, it is extremely easy to get sucked into the "box" even when there is nothing good on. Not much different than the slouches who spend all day watching TV. That isn't personal to you; its how I feel about myself when I come on here. While computers can be a great tool, they also play very heavily to any slough or addictive tendencies one may have and, in that way, can also be destructive. We have enough of a hold on life to do the absolute essentials for survival but, it seems, not an ounce more. It may be related to depression, it may not; I think that actually can vary.

I've found the only way to beat it is have no internet access, or no computer. I didn't take my laptop when I went on my last vacation specifically because I needed a vacation from the box, as well. And I probably have more outside pressures banging on me to keep my "minimum" for getting through life a little higher than most. But, still, I rather wish I'd never gotten so good at using this tool. I am much, much happier when I actually, finally, get myself to do something "real," like ride a bike, take a hike, or complete some long abandoned chore at home.

This sounds like inertia to me. I have the same problem. There are so many interesting and healthy things I could be doing, things that would benefit others, my family especially, as well as my self. But ........... I keep going back to my computer, tucked away in my room like a hermit. Inert, except for my mind and my fingers. I get ideas to do other things, but only make a perfunctory attempt and then run into some small obstacle which makes me say, "Ah, what's the use." Then, back to my room and my computer. At least, some of the time, I use my computer creatively by working on writing, video and art projects. Still, it's a big, wonderful world out there, and I'm not participating like I think I should, and that seems self destructive, or at least, some kind of self-sabotage. Not a good thing. I'm hoping to get a grip soon and telling myself that this lethargy will pass.

I use to do all the "have to do stuffy first" like doing the dishes, get the grocery and such and after that I turn on the computer and do the internet things

If I turn it on before I have done the other stuff first I gets restless and it destroys the day Because I know I have to interrupt my computering and also that I have to do something that is more boring than being on the computer...

Yeah Spokane it reached 100 here in lynnwood or at least very close to that temp.