Who Here Realy Has Autism

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I have autism and i have had it for years since i was born, my teacher did thought i had AS because my behaviour is very similar to it.

That's what got me very confused about it and ever since i was stressed until last week or the week before, i found out i was just autistic because i had speech delay and i didn't speak till 3 and a half.

Now i know i'm just autistic and i could just be a little proud of it but there is some things i'm not proud about like in like social wise lol.

VampireGirl, I knew about the first response being sarcastic, but I can't figure out if this one is or not:

I've never been diagnosed, although I've been told professionally that AS is highly likely.

I've always known that my brain works very differently than most.

I don't think or feel (as in physically or emotionally feel) the way most people do.

I do fine outwardly socially as far as "blending" goes, but I don't interact or process interactions normally.

I can relate at times to people with AS and people without it, but usually I relate to no one. Whether anyone ever relates to me, I have no idea, but generally I doubt it.

I have no identity, or one that is capable of changing minute to minute, depending on how you look at it.

I am unable to tell whether my brain never ever changes, or changes just as rapidly as my identity.

I understand things intellectually on a very deep level that instinctively are completely foreign to me; and because the only brain I know is my own, I have no way of knowing whether this is "normal".

I have no conception whatsoever of elitism, hierarchies, cliques, or any kind of inflexible belief.

Beyond all else in this world I strive to be a student of my own mind, and still I understand very little; I have no clue whether that actually reflects truly in my actions, or if it is just a desire.

I can tell intuitively that I understand either vastly more or vastly less than 99% of the people around me, but I have no idea which of the two it is.

I deeply want to "understand" the inner workings of the "typical" mind, but I would never want to actually experience them.


What does all this make me? I have no idea, and I don't care on a level beyond simple curiosity, because a "label" is just a label, and will get me nothing and will not change me in the slightest.

I am diagnosed with AS, but I would also fit the criteria for Autistic Disorder, so yes, I am Autistic.

Diagnosed AS...

Yes, I have it.

Though I do not have an "official" diagnosis of Asperger's syndrome my childhood behavior
was described by a few medical professionals as autistic because of my need to adhere to certain
routines and the presence of stereotypical motor habits.

Yes, I have autism---officially diagnosed. It is Asperger's---but since that is on the autism spectrum, I consider it as autism. And in 2012, it sounds like we on the spectrum are all going to be grouped together under ASD.

I was Dxed as a kid as having "infantile autism". As an adult, I've been Dxed with Asperger's.

To clear up any...confusion, why yes, I have Autistic Disorder, diagnosed by one Doctor Field, three years ago at the age of 25. Said to be more severe than the common manifestation of AS, but far above the common manifestation of Autistic Disorder.

Also given an AS label by one Doctor Julie Fox three years ago.

i had to put "I don't know" because there is the shadow of a doubt because although I was assessed, it was not the same as a formal diagnosis.
...I could be the way that I am for other reasons maybe...I could be under the delusion that it runs in my family of artists architects/engineers and musicians....
It could be that I was not taught the proper social skills at the proper age...and that I started walking on my toes to imitate the tippy-toes doll...and that I have not been able to learn to drive because I am a lazy wuss...and that blah blah blah...all kinds of things I have simply warped into my delusion that I am on the autistic spectrum....but I wonder what having a delusion that I am on spectrum might say about me as a person.
I can say that I don't lie about things in my posts...I try to be as honest as I can be, and maybe if I wasn't on the spectrum, there would be no reason for me to have been stuck here addicted to an autism message board for 2 and a half years....or however long it has been.

There are some things about me that don't conform to the AS streotypes...and there might be some people who think that some of the things that I do are not things that a mildly autistic person would be able to do...like be polyamorous and run a venue and play in bands...I am somewhat social....I have to be, doing what I do...but I have had problems for my entire life....and most pronouncedly the developmental issues I had as a child seem to fit with the AS scenario....better than anything else...but I guess I can't rule out PTSD and/or head trauma...or maybe I am some sort of delusional narcissist completely in denial that I am using the autistic spectrum as a cop-out for my extreme disorganization repetitive behavior and propensity to collect things....and with the proper attitude adjustment I could just buck up and change...

compared to others around here, I'm on the spectrum (maybe near-infrared..., but compared to the NT world at large, yeah...I'm there...