TheSunAlsoRises wrote:
Transhuman wrote:
TheSunAlsoRises wrote:
Transhuman wrote:
What I noticed is that half to 2/3 of the actions which I do when I do "this" are exactly the same as those with low functioning autism do.
You don't have many melt downs either; I'm willing to bet.
TheSunAlsoRisesWell, very often (usually 0.5 to 2 times a day), I get angry and annoyed to such a point that I start punching walls and breaking things around me. This usually happens usually when I'm preoccupied with my activity and someone keeps distracting me by saying irrelevant stuff, or when I feel very empty and frustrated. I also scream when I'm doing this - usually swearing.
I do it with such intensity that my neighbors have called the police 2 times. Both of the times, they arrived with assault rifles.
I also feel like I can relate to the LFA people a lot for some reason.Your developmental trajectory was unique. Described strictly from a behavioral stand point; i imagine people would classify you as so-called low functioning. Ahhhhh, but from an intellectual perspective; you would be considered so-called high functioning and YET your innate tendencies lean more toward Kanners autism then Aspergers autism.
Let me form my question this way: IF i took your stims away via tractor sounds, rolling on the bed, hand waving, etc. Do you think you would have more or less meltdowns than you normally do?
TheSunAlsoRisesI would start feeling empty and unfulfilled, as well as very frustrated.
These noises/actions make me feel very fulfilled, and if they would get taken away, I would assume I would assume I would have more meltdowns. What I noticed is that I often use some of these noises when communicating with people. I try not to, but when I start feeling like I could relate to the person, I often do. I would tell them something like "I'm a tractor beep beep", or make cat sounds.
As for the developmental trajectory: I also didn't dress myself completely until the age of 12-13. I was spoon-fed until the age of 11, but I knew how to use my spoon when I was around 2 years old and half.
I also tend to feel very overwhelmed by the real world and all of it's demands, to the point that my mind goes blank and I just walk around like a zombie.
Quite a few people would look at your behavior and conclude that you are obviously hypo-sensitive. They would suggest THAT you are creating external stimuli in order to compensate for weak response mechanism(s). I wouldn't necessarily agree with that assertion.
I'm curious about something. Were you ever given any type of behavioral modification therapy ? Were there any attempts by healthcare professionals to change your stim behaviors and aggressive outbursts ? When did these major aggressive outbursts begin(those that warrant police showing up with assault rifles)? Have they (aggressive outbursts) become worse over-time?
26 Feb 2012, 8:05 pm
