The real causes of depression, anxiety and anger...

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yes i was a happy, innocent little kid until i went to school and the other kids saw my differences and well you know..

Mmm... pasta.

Yeah, along with everyone else, I was a pretty happy kid if a little high strung and easily overstimulated. It's only when I really began to see that how others perceive you can really define your life at school that I became anxious.

So I tried to fit in more.

• I tried to stop using big words.
• I tried to seem like I understood what everyone was talking about (sarcasm and double-entendres were the worst for me).
• I tried to be less naive (but when you're naive, it's impossible to tell when you're being naive...)
• I tried to stop being so interested in such weird (read: tomboy) things.
• I tried to keep up with the trends (always came out looking a little ridiculous though - like I never quite got it...).

I even lowered my test scores on purpose, just so I would be more like them...

When I realized this wasn't going to work, I got very depressed, and angry, the state in which I spent my adolescence / early 20's.

Now that I'm older, however (and also after having researched Asperger's / Autism) I feel like my comprehension is finally dissolving the negativity I'd fostered since late childhood / early adolescence.

So, in conclusion, I concur!

Scintillate,

I just got sick and tired of them putting me down, and some came up with stupid ideas,
or tried to hurt me, so I get upset, and sometimes I say things I mean. 8-( BTW I know
what I said.

DrowningMedusa,

Yeah, I guess I was a happy kid VERY early on. I guess the bad times just overpowered
things. When I had my little obsessions, etc... I was HAPPY! I was ahead of where I
knew I had to be, and LOVED learning. Later, things just changed. 8-(

Then my life kind of parallels yours

So I tried to fit in more.

* I tried to stop using big words.
* I tried to seem like I understood what everyone was talking about (sarcasm and
double-entendres were the worst for me). BTW I always tried to think of the
cleanest response, and most others think of the other one.
* I tried to be less naive I guess I failed because of things like laughter.
* I just couldn't bring myself to be obsessed with things THEY were like sports!
* I tried to keep up with the trends so I could at least relate on some level.

As I said, I found homework BORING, so I didn't worry about THAT too much.

I got very depressed, and angry, and was in that state for most of the rest of my life! 8-( Hopefully, that
is OVER!

You know what!! ! ANOTHER wierd aspect of my life is EXPLAINED by AS!! !! I had an idea,
because AS explained the skewing of my senses, but in looking up the comorbidity of
depression with some other things, THERE IT WAS!! !! It said that a person that has
aspergers could be insensitive to extreme cold or heat. I used to go EVERYWHERE, WHENEVER,
without a coat. I started wearing a coat in winter on my job sometimes simply to cut down
comments. I won't even tell you how cold it gets. Let's just say nobody would believe it,
sometimes NOBODY else is outside with just a shirt, and a collegue once accused me of
trying to look like a bigshot. WHY would it be so hard to believe? I have lived through
about 12 really cold winters, and NO FROSTBITE! The other winters were spent in warm
areas, and don't count. As for heat? I usually can't stand the heat. The sun, and high
humidity outside? FORGET IT! Of course THERE, I am talking about 80+f. I DO take hot
showers, and clean things using VERY hot(A good deal hotter than 80f) water.

So, I agree also!

Steve