minervx wrote:
I feel I'm not really an Aspie, but not really 100% Nuerotypical either, but I do feel like I lean ,overall, more to the side of non-Aspie.
do you think a person can go from aspie to non-aspie?
I think Yes and No.. I posted a thread called: "Are You Bi? (both AS and NT)" about something similar to this.
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt225571.html
I am someone who was undiagnosed for my whole life until now. When i was a child and teenager, i didn't know if i had any kind of "problem", i just assumed i was "different" (in a negative way) and that i needed to drastically change myself. So i trained myself, conditioned myself to perform "normal social behavior" as naturally as possible. I thought i could replace my self-hated behavior, and create an improved better me. I was a junior high school student at that time.
So i forced myself to be more outgoing, more friendly, more extroverted, to beat the "normal people" at their game.. To out-NT the NTs.. aggressively fought my natural instinct to be reclusive and anti-social.. This was a slow "trial and error" process, stressful experience for several years. But i was very determined to be "normal". The result was, eventually, i successfully became "normal". In fact i was even more popular, had more friends, had more "funky adventures" than the "normal" people, and some even asked my advice on how to be more sociable, the irony

..So i thought the old self was gone? .. Well, the truth was, it was never replaced, but still very much alive. Sometimes it pops up, and i swing back "in and out" various periods or phases of AS and NT behavior..
So i think YES and NO.. "Yes" you can definitely become non-aspie, but it is a conditioned and constructed personality.. The original aspie personality you were born with is not totally erased, it is just covered up or suppressed.. You basically end up with 2 personalities.
Is this a problem? Actually, i do not think so.. I really enjoy, admire and love my constructed NT persona and the rewards it has brought me, but i also realize my ASD persona is still there too, which definitely causes problems and stress.. I must, somehow, respect both of them.. My next challenge of my life is learn how to balance these two extremes, to reconcile and live smoothly between these 2 personalities.. I am still trying to perfect this process.. Its a continuing adventure..