Hate for people/sociopathy?

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For a while I've been thinking that I might have at least some traits of sociopathy or something similar. If there is something that describes better what I have, please tell me.

Sometimes I feel extremely cold and hateful towards almost everyone and everything. It almost feels like shifting into a different personality for a certain time. It usually occurs when I had an argument with someone, or when I'm in overload or just feel annoyed somehow. Usually I'm a nice and polite, though quiet and withdrawn person. But in these phases I suddenly feel and think like I imagine a sociopath would. I think bad about most people (except those I really care for), and generally don't have any caring or loving emotions. I am annoyed by people and want to be alone. I lie without any bad conscience and just ignore people or behave sarcastic and condescending. I also feel some kind of power, like I am better/stronger than most people. These phases are not really unpleasant, but I am aware that I am behaving antisocially - I just don't care. Afterwards I mostly feel worried about it.

Aside from these phases, I can also be joyful, happy and funny sometimes. But some of these traits are always there. I never cared much about people, never feeling any real close or intimate friendship or love. I can like and feel good in a group of people, but I don't develop any real care for an individual. When my father died, I was hardly sad at all, though we had a good relationship. As a child, I sometimes hurt animals (slightly) because I was curious how they would react. I also stole from people and didn't care that it was a bad thing to do. I lie a lot and often feel cold and disconnected from the world. When I was very young I sometimes hurt myself because I was fascinated by blood.

But I also have situations when I care deeply about social injustice (for example I support gay rights) and I actually love animals. I usually love harmony and am polite and considerate. But it's like this "dark side" is a shadow that's always in my subconsciousness somewhere and sometimes it takes control.

Is this a normal thing that most people experience, but nobody talks about? Or should I be worried? Could I be a part time sociopath or something like that?

For a while I've been thinking that I might have at least some traits of sociopathy or something similar. If there is something that describes better what I have, please tell me. in these phases I suddenly feel and think like I imagine a sociopath would. I think bad about most people (except those I really care for), and generally don't have any caring or loving emotions.

Aside from these phases, I can also be joyful, happy and funny sometimes. But some of these traits are always there. I never cared much about people, never feeling any real close or intimate friendship or love. I can like and feel good in a group of people, but I don't develop any real care for an individual. When my father died, I was hardly sad at all, though we had a good relationship. As a child, I sometimes hurt animals (slightly) because I was curious how they would react. I also stole from people and didn't care that it was a bad thing to do. I lie a lot and often feel cold and disconnected from the world. When I was very young I sometimes hurt myself because I was fascinated by blood.

But I also have situations when I care deeply about social injustice (for example I support gay rights) and I actually love animals. I usually love harmony and am polite and considerate. But it's like this "dark side" is a shadow that's always in my subconsciousness somewhere and sometimes it takes control.
Is this a normal thing that most people experience, but nobody talks about? Or should I be worried? Could I be a part time sociopath or something like that?