14 Dec 2013, 10:17 am
14 Dec 2013, 11:10 am
14 Dec 2013, 11:39 am
14 Dec 2013, 11:45 am
Random42 wrote:
bumble wrote:
I have traits of an ASD but also seem to diverge away from its symptoms in certain ways according to what I have read thus far. It may be that my reading is incomplete.
I am also not formerly diagnosed and have a diagnosis of Social Anxiety and depression. They can be factors in regards to my social difficulties but do not cover all of them by any means.
For example I am not always nervous about talking to people, I just have nothing to say to them. The contents of my head differ greatly from the contents of their head. They concern themselves with the latest reality tv show, the newest trend or the hottest nightspot. I am interested in unraveling the mysteries of the universe and actually enjoy studying, writing essays and sitting exams (god my exams were fun...wish I could get back into formal study again). I used to spend hours researching in the library. It was not work...it was my pleasure.
I do well grade wise, I don't worry about that, more often than not I get A grades anyway so why fret it? I just loved learning and wanted to know as much as I could, but not by using rote memorisation. I am a reflective learner. I have to explore the material in order to spot patterns and understand the relationships involved. I am also divergent in my thinking. I am not always a fan of mainstream theory and think many of the most popular theories used today are flawed..especially in the field of psychology.
Most people don't understand my love of learning.
I hate sitting around making social chit chat most of the time (unless the conversation is particularly fascinating in which case I enjoy a good verbal exchange of thought and and information with someone, however it is rare that I can find someone to converse with that fluidly). I get bored...I hate sitting (full stop unless I am mentally involved in something I enjoy such as reading a book) and I dislike most conversations I have with people. I get bored basically and I lose my ability to concentrate when that happens. I can't help it and don't mean it in an insulting way...regular everyday chit chat just does not hold my attention. Either my brain wonders off (if I am distracted by my own somewhat more interesting thoughts...or at least I find them more interesting even if no one else does) or I do if distracted something external in the environment (ooooh interesting thing in a museum...oooo interesting book....ooooo new knitting project as I have a needlecrafts thing in the process of appearing right now). I have gotten distracted and literally left people talking to themselves because my brain saw something fascinating and forgot (genuinely lost focus and forgot) the person was standing there talking to me.
I also have samenesses and can like certain routines like people on the spectrum (I always like to do certain things in the same way over and over again) however, outside of those few things I love to try new and different stuff. I want experience. I want to explore, I want to learn, i want to understand...I am curious.
Keeping me stuck in boring old la la lets sit down and watch telly and make chitty chat land is driving me nuts.
I am not afraid of failure instead I am curious about my skill...ie I always wanted to push my education as far as I could just to see where my ability ended. At what level of education would it have become too difficult for me to get A grades and when would I have needed to start revising for exams in order to do it (outstanding memory I have). I would have had to push it to failure to find out. Unfortunately my health got in my way (thanks migraine headaches and IBS) and stopped me so I never got to answer my question. Now funding and people complaining about my ability being intimidating when i do study are my main issues in regards to going back into education. If I ever resolve those though..off I will go.
I need to be in a class of really secure people I think. They need to restructure the education system. Not only did I have to spend a lot of time waiting for everyone else to catch up before I could move on at school (god help me I got bored and took to being a chronic daydreamer to help me cope with the boredom of having to wait...and wait....and wait...and do the work already some of us want to learn the next thing stuff) but people were pissed off and gave me hard time because I was naturally good at things and could learn very quickly. If not in a class of those with equal ability and a healthy self esteem I can't function in the educational environment.
I can also have issues with group work. I work best alone.
I do have intensive interests although sometimes they can be patchy and I can be fickle. At the moment my brain won't pick one...its jumping from one interest to another. My brain wants to try it all....too much curiosity, cant choose...I had this problem when I trying to pick a degree.
"Ohhh that looks like an interesting subject, oh and that one, um and that one, um oooo that too...um which one do I choose?" In the end I tend to give up and do none of it because I just can't decide. I could have gotten good grades in anyone of them, my skills in that way are fairly equal across the board with a minor fluctuations (but nothing significant...I get a B or B+ instead of an A).
Sometimes I hone in on one particular interest because it becomes a problem in regards to my brain wanting to jump from one thing to another all time and my not being able to make my mind up. On saying that when I do get my brain to play ball and 'get into' something it becomes obsessive in nature. I want to know everything about it. I have fallen in love with it and I will literally spend hours learning about it or doing research.
If something bores me...or I can't muster up the interest I have the concentration span of a goldfish with Alzheimer's Disease and so it's pointless trying to get me to pay attention to anything.
I also I seem to be a bit more energetic than most people I meet....I get bored. I have boredom issues. Boredom is not good for me, it makes me scatty brained.
Also I have trouble reading some social cues they seem to be illogical, pointless and made up.
Most of the time people really don't make a lot of sense and I do wish they would stop with the over simplifying everything. No wonder some of today's theories are poppy cock. I bet they left out important details that might have changed the over all interpretation or meaning of the raw data! Tut.
So I have some similarities with ASD people but veer away in some respects (I think). It maybe that my reading is not yet complete as I said above. Also what is written is often based on stereotypes as someone mentioned a few weeks back and this can be misleading.
Honestly I have no idea where I fit in.
I also have no idea what I want my therapist to help me with when I see her next week. First appointment with this one. I can't asses what help I need as I don't know exactly what the problem is and what is causing it, whether it is something I can change (learned/psychological) or something I cannot (biological, neurological). Without knowing such how can I know what they can help me with?
What a daft thing for my therapist to ask given the circumstances.
Excuse the typos, in the local library, limited time on pc, need to type quickly then go...
I am also not formerly diagnosed and have a diagnosis of Social Anxiety and depression. They can be factors in regards to my social difficulties but do not cover all of them by any means.
For example I am not always nervous about talking to people, I just have nothing to say to them. The contents of my head differ greatly from the contents of their head. They concern themselves with the latest reality tv show, the newest trend or the hottest nightspot. I am interested in unraveling the mysteries of the universe and actually enjoy studying, writing essays and sitting exams (god my exams were fun...wish I could get back into formal study again). I used to spend hours researching in the library. It was not work...it was my pleasure.
I do well grade wise, I don't worry about that, more often than not I get A grades anyway so why fret it? I just loved learning and wanted to know as much as I could, but not by using rote memorisation. I am a reflective learner. I have to explore the material in order to spot patterns and understand the relationships involved. I am also divergent in my thinking. I am not always a fan of mainstream theory and think many of the most popular theories used today are flawed..especially in the field of psychology.
Most people don't understand my love of learning.
I hate sitting around making social chit chat most of the time (unless the conversation is particularly fascinating in which case I enjoy a good verbal exchange of thought and and information with someone, however it is rare that I can find someone to converse with that fluidly). I get bored...I hate sitting (full stop unless I am mentally involved in something I enjoy such as reading a book) and I dislike most conversations I have with people. I get bored basically and I lose my ability to concentrate when that happens. I can't help it and don't mean it in an insulting way...regular everyday chit chat just does not hold my attention. Either my brain wonders off (if I am distracted by my own somewhat more interesting thoughts...or at least I find them more interesting even if no one else does) or I do if distracted something external in the environment (ooooh interesting thing in a museum...oooo interesting book....ooooo new knitting project as I have a needlecrafts thing in the process of appearing right now). I have gotten distracted and literally left people talking to themselves because my brain saw something fascinating and forgot (genuinely lost focus and forgot) the person was standing there talking to me.
I also have samenesses and can like certain routines like people on the spectrum (I always like to do certain things in the same way over and over again) however, outside of those few things I love to try new and different stuff. I want experience. I want to explore, I want to learn, i want to understand...I am curious.
Keeping me stuck in boring old la la lets sit down and watch telly and make chitty chat land is driving me nuts.
I am not afraid of failure instead I am curious about my skill...ie I always wanted to push my education as far as I could just to see where my ability ended. At what level of education would it have become too difficult for me to get A grades and when would I have needed to start revising for exams in order to do it (outstanding memory I have). I would have had to push it to failure to find out. Unfortunately my health got in my way (thanks migraine headaches and IBS) and stopped me so I never got to answer my question. Now funding and people complaining about my ability being intimidating when i do study are my main issues in regards to going back into education. If I ever resolve those though..off I will go.
I need to be in a class of really secure people I think. They need to restructure the education system. Not only did I have to spend a lot of time waiting for everyone else to catch up before I could move on at school (god help me I got bored and took to being a chronic daydreamer to help me cope with the boredom of having to wait...and wait....and wait...and do the work already some of us want to learn the next thing stuff) but people were pissed off and gave me hard time because I was naturally good at things and could learn very quickly. If not in a class of those with equal ability and a healthy self esteem I can't function in the educational environment.
I can also have issues with group work. I work best alone.
I do have intensive interests although sometimes they can be patchy and I can be fickle. At the moment my brain won't pick one...its jumping from one interest to another. My brain wants to try it all....too much curiosity, cant choose...I had this problem when I trying to pick a degree.
"Ohhh that looks like an interesting subject, oh and that one, um and that one, um oooo that too...um which one do I choose?" In the end I tend to give up and do none of it because I just can't decide. I could have gotten good grades in anyone of them, my skills in that way are fairly equal across the board with a minor fluctuations (but nothing significant...I get a B or B+ instead of an A).
Sometimes I hone in on one particular interest because it becomes a problem in regards to my brain wanting to jump from one thing to another all time and my not being able to make my mind up. On saying that when I do get my brain to play ball and 'get into' something it becomes obsessive in nature. I want to know everything about it. I have fallen in love with it and I will literally spend hours learning about it or doing research.
If something bores me...or I can't muster up the interest I have the concentration span of a goldfish with Alzheimer's Disease and so it's pointless trying to get me to pay attention to anything.
I also I seem to be a bit more energetic than most people I meet....I get bored. I have boredom issues. Boredom is not good for me, it makes me scatty brained.
Also I have trouble reading some social cues they seem to be illogical, pointless and made up.
Most of the time people really don't make a lot of sense and I do wish they would stop with the over simplifying everything. No wonder some of today's theories are poppy cock. I bet they left out important details that might have changed the over all interpretation or meaning of the raw data! Tut.
So I have some similarities with ASD people but veer away in some respects (I think). It maybe that my reading is not yet complete as I said above. Also what is written is often based on stereotypes as someone mentioned a few weeks back and this can be misleading.
Honestly I have no idea where I fit in.
I also have no idea what I want my therapist to help me with when I see her next week. First appointment with this one. I can't asses what help I need as I don't know exactly what the problem is and what is causing it, whether it is something I can change (learned/psychological) or something I cannot (biological, neurological). Without knowing such how can I know what they can help me with?
What a daft thing for my therapist to ask given the circumstances.
Excuse the typos, in the local library, limited time on pc, need to type quickly then go...
What you said here sounds like a description of a gifted person. I am gifted and ASD. Much of what you said I relate to. However, my lack of social skills goes beyond just boredom and having different interests from others... I simply have no idea what to do socially. I know some gifted people. I find their interests interesting, and want to be friends with them. However, I have known them for over a year and have not gotten past friendly acquaintances. They on the other hand are already all friends. I was also in a gifted class in school. Though, I didn't fit in with any of them either. Another difference is I tend to have one or two strong interests at a time. I can be interested in other things, but my focus is on those one or two things. I often talk too much about whatever my interest is, even when I try not to. The other gifted people I know, have multiple interests and their conversations include more variety than mine. Another difference is I have sensory issues, and they don't. Also, they can read nonverbal cues, and I can't (not just from boredom, I simply can't read them unless they are extreme). They can go up to people and start a conversation, I usually can't( not just because I am afraid to. I don't know how to approach a group or start conversations)
I'm gifted and dx'd Asperger's and ADHD-(Inattentive type). I'm right there with Random42, sensory issues, lack of friends (and lack of knowledge or instinct to make them) and substantial communication difficulties due to my literal thinking (not knowing what people are trying to say, just hearing their actual words, unless I've learned the phrase, meaning, etc. through route (experiential and linear)). The combination of ASD and ADHD causes me to appear impulsive, impatient, outspoken, direct, blunt, rude, and uncaring about others. The energy used to control my impulses, like DevilKisses, and the energy used to interpret the behavior of other people leaves me completely drained to the point that I appear randomly incompetent (in the face of apparent competency when fully charged) which causes most of the problems in my relationships with others. So I wish I was only gifted, as anyone might wish for only good without the bad.
Oh and I love that phrase: goldfish with Alzheimer's disease that is so me when I'm tired and bored!
14 Dec 2013, 1:23 pm
14 Dec 2013, 2:26 pm
14 Dec 2013, 2:39 pm
kirayng wrote:
Random42 wrote:
bumble wrote:
I have traits of an ASD but also seem to diverge away from its symptoms in certain ways according to what I have read thus far. It may be that my reading is incomplete.
I am also not formerly diagnosed and have a diagnosis of Social Anxiety and depression. They can be factors in regards to my social difficulties but do not cover all of them by any means.
For example I am not always nervous about talking to people, I just have nothing to say to them. The contents of my head differ greatly from the contents of their head. They concern themselves with the latest reality tv show, the newest trend or the hottest nightspot. I am interested in unraveling the mysteries of the universe and actually enjoy studying, writing essays and sitting exams (god my exams were fun...wish I could get back into formal study again). I used to spend hours researching in the library. It was not work...it was my pleasure.
I do well grade wise, I don't worry about that, more often than not I get A grades anyway so why fret it? I just loved learning and wanted to know as much as I could, but not by using rote memorisation. I am a reflective learner. I have to explore the material in order to spot patterns and understand the relationships involved. I am also divergent in my thinking. I am not always a fan of mainstream theory and think many of the most popular theories used today are flawed..especially in the field of psychology.
Most people don't understand my love of learning.
I hate sitting around making social chit chat most of the time (unless the conversation is particularly fascinating in which case I enjoy a good verbal exchange of thought and and information with someone, however it is rare that I can find someone to converse with that fluidly). I get bored...I hate sitting (full stop unless I am mentally involved in something I enjoy such as reading a book) and I dislike most conversations I have with people. I get bored basically and I lose my ability to concentrate when that happens. I can't help it and don't mean it in an insulting way...regular everyday chit chat just does not hold my attention. Either my brain wonders off (if I am distracted by my own somewhat more interesting thoughts...or at least I find them more interesting even if no one else does) or I do if distracted something external in the environment (ooooh interesting thing in a museum...oooo interesting book....ooooo new knitting project as I have a needlecrafts thing in the process of appearing right now). I have gotten distracted and literally left people talking to themselves because my brain saw something fascinating and forgot (genuinely lost focus and forgot) the person was standing there talking to me.
I also have samenesses and can like certain routines like people on the spectrum (I always like to do certain things in the same way over and over again) however, outside of those few things I love to try new and different stuff. I want experience. I want to explore, I want to learn, i want to understand...I am curious.
Keeping me stuck in boring old la la lets sit down and watch telly and make chitty chat land is driving me nuts.
I am not afraid of failure instead I am curious about my skill...ie I always wanted to push my education as far as I could just to see where my ability ended. At what level of education would it have become too difficult for me to get A grades and when would I have needed to start revising for exams in order to do it (outstanding memory I have). I would have had to push it to failure to find out. Unfortunately my health got in my way (thanks migraine headaches and IBS) and stopped me so I never got to answer my question. Now funding and people complaining about my ability being intimidating when i do study are my main issues in regards to going back into education. If I ever resolve those though..off I will go.
I need to be in a class of really secure people I think. They need to restructure the education system. Not only did I have to spend a lot of time waiting for everyone else to catch up before I could move on at school (god help me I got bored and took to being a chronic daydreamer to help me cope with the boredom of having to wait...and wait....and wait...and do the work already some of us want to learn the next thing stuff) but people were pissed off and gave me hard time because I was naturally good at things and could learn very quickly. If not in a class of those with equal ability and a healthy self esteem I can't function in the educational environment.
I can also have issues with group work. I work best alone.
I do have intensive interests although sometimes they can be patchy and I can be fickle. At the moment my brain won't pick one...its jumping from one interest to another. My brain wants to try it all....too much curiosity, cant choose...I had this problem when I trying to pick a degree.
"Ohhh that looks like an interesting subject, oh and that one, um and that one, um oooo that too...um which one do I choose?" In the end I tend to give up and do none of it because I just can't decide. I could have gotten good grades in anyone of them, my skills in that way are fairly equal across the board with a minor fluctuations (but nothing significant...I get a B or B+ instead of an A).
Sometimes I hone in on one particular interest because it becomes a problem in regards to my brain wanting to jump from one thing to another all time and my not being able to make my mind up. On saying that when I do get my brain to play ball and 'get into' something it becomes obsessive in nature. I want to know everything about it. I have fallen in love with it and I will literally spend hours learning about it or doing research.
If something bores me...or I can't muster up the interest I have the concentration span of a goldfish with Alzheimer's Disease and so it's pointless trying to get me to pay attention to anything.
I also I seem to be a bit more energetic than most people I meet....I get bored. I have boredom issues. Boredom is not good for me, it makes me scatty brained.
Also I have trouble reading some social cues they seem to be illogical, pointless and made up.
Most of the time people really don't make a lot of sense and I do wish they would stop with the over simplifying everything. No wonder some of today's theories are poppy cock. I bet they left out important details that might have changed the over all interpretation or meaning of the raw data! Tut.
So I have some similarities with ASD people but veer away in some respects (I think). It maybe that my reading is not yet complete as I said above. Also what is written is often based on stereotypes as someone mentioned a few weeks back and this can be misleading.
Honestly I have no idea where I fit in.
I also have no idea what I want my therapist to help me with when I see her next week. First appointment with this one. I can't asses what help I need as I don't know exactly what the problem is and what is causing it, whether it is something I can change (learned/psychological) or something I cannot (biological, neurological). Without knowing such how can I know what they can help me with?
What a daft thing for my therapist to ask given the circumstances.
Excuse the typos, in the local library, limited time on pc, need to type quickly then go...
I am also not formerly diagnosed and have a diagnosis of Social Anxiety and depression. They can be factors in regards to my social difficulties but do not cover all of them by any means.
For example I am not always nervous about talking to people, I just have nothing to say to them. The contents of my head differ greatly from the contents of their head. They concern themselves with the latest reality tv show, the newest trend or the hottest nightspot. I am interested in unraveling the mysteries of the universe and actually enjoy studying, writing essays and sitting exams (god my exams were fun...wish I could get back into formal study again). I used to spend hours researching in the library. It was not work...it was my pleasure.
I do well grade wise, I don't worry about that, more often than not I get A grades anyway so why fret it? I just loved learning and wanted to know as much as I could, but not by using rote memorisation. I am a reflective learner. I have to explore the material in order to spot patterns and understand the relationships involved. I am also divergent in my thinking. I am not always a fan of mainstream theory and think many of the most popular theories used today are flawed..especially in the field of psychology.
Most people don't understand my love of learning.
I hate sitting around making social chit chat most of the time (unless the conversation is particularly fascinating in which case I enjoy a good verbal exchange of thought and and information with someone, however it is rare that I can find someone to converse with that fluidly). I get bored...I hate sitting (full stop unless I am mentally involved in something I enjoy such as reading a book) and I dislike most conversations I have with people. I get bored basically and I lose my ability to concentrate when that happens. I can't help it and don't mean it in an insulting way...regular everyday chit chat just does not hold my attention. Either my brain wonders off (if I am distracted by my own somewhat more interesting thoughts...or at least I find them more interesting even if no one else does) or I do if distracted something external in the environment (ooooh interesting thing in a museum...oooo interesting book....ooooo new knitting project as I have a needlecrafts thing in the process of appearing right now). I have gotten distracted and literally left people talking to themselves because my brain saw something fascinating and forgot (genuinely lost focus and forgot) the person was standing there talking to me.
I also have samenesses and can like certain routines like people on the spectrum (I always like to do certain things in the same way over and over again) however, outside of those few things I love to try new and different stuff. I want experience. I want to explore, I want to learn, i want to understand...I am curious.
Keeping me stuck in boring old la la lets sit down and watch telly and make chitty chat land is driving me nuts.
I am not afraid of failure instead I am curious about my skill...ie I always wanted to push my education as far as I could just to see where my ability ended. At what level of education would it have become too difficult for me to get A grades and when would I have needed to start revising for exams in order to do it (outstanding memory I have). I would have had to push it to failure to find out. Unfortunately my health got in my way (thanks migraine headaches and IBS) and stopped me so I never got to answer my question. Now funding and people complaining about my ability being intimidating when i do study are my main issues in regards to going back into education. If I ever resolve those though..off I will go.
I need to be in a class of really secure people I think. They need to restructure the education system. Not only did I have to spend a lot of time waiting for everyone else to catch up before I could move on at school (god help me I got bored and took to being a chronic daydreamer to help me cope with the boredom of having to wait...and wait....and wait...and do the work already some of us want to learn the next thing stuff) but people were pissed off and gave me hard time because I was naturally good at things and could learn very quickly. If not in a class of those with equal ability and a healthy self esteem I can't function in the educational environment.
I can also have issues with group work. I work best alone.
I do have intensive interests although sometimes they can be patchy and I can be fickle. At the moment my brain won't pick one...its jumping from one interest to another. My brain wants to try it all....too much curiosity, cant choose...I had this problem when I trying to pick a degree.
"Ohhh that looks like an interesting subject, oh and that one, um and that one, um oooo that too...um which one do I choose?" In the end I tend to give up and do none of it because I just can't decide. I could have gotten good grades in anyone of them, my skills in that way are fairly equal across the board with a minor fluctuations (but nothing significant...I get a B or B+ instead of an A).
Sometimes I hone in on one particular interest because it becomes a problem in regards to my brain wanting to jump from one thing to another all time and my not being able to make my mind up. On saying that when I do get my brain to play ball and 'get into' something it becomes obsessive in nature. I want to know everything about it. I have fallen in love with it and I will literally spend hours learning about it or doing research.
If something bores me...or I can't muster up the interest I have the concentration span of a goldfish with Alzheimer's Disease and so it's pointless trying to get me to pay attention to anything.
I also I seem to be a bit more energetic than most people I meet....I get bored. I have boredom issues. Boredom is not good for me, it makes me scatty brained.
Also I have trouble reading some social cues they seem to be illogical, pointless and made up.
Most of the time people really don't make a lot of sense and I do wish they would stop with the over simplifying everything. No wonder some of today's theories are poppy cock. I bet they left out important details that might have changed the over all interpretation or meaning of the raw data! Tut.
So I have some similarities with ASD people but veer away in some respects (I think). It maybe that my reading is not yet complete as I said above. Also what is written is often based on stereotypes as someone mentioned a few weeks back and this can be misleading.
Honestly I have no idea where I fit in.
I also have no idea what I want my therapist to help me with when I see her next week. First appointment with this one. I can't asses what help I need as I don't know exactly what the problem is and what is causing it, whether it is something I can change (learned/psychological) or something I cannot (biological, neurological). Without knowing such how can I know what they can help me with?
What a daft thing for my therapist to ask given the circumstances.
Excuse the typos, in the local library, limited time on pc, need to type quickly then go...
What you said here sounds like a description of a gifted person. I am gifted and ASD. Much of what you said I relate to. However, my lack of social skills goes beyond just boredom and having different interests from others... I simply have no idea what to do socially. I know some gifted people. I find their interests interesting, and want to be friends with them. However, I have known them for over a year and have not gotten past friendly acquaintances. They on the other hand are already all friends. I was also in a gifted class in school. Though, I didn't fit in with any of them either. Another difference is I tend to have one or two strong interests at a time. I can be interested in other things, but my focus is on those one or two things. I often talk too much about whatever my interest is, even when I try not to. The other gifted people I know, have multiple interests and their conversations include more variety than mine. Another difference is I have sensory issues, and they don't. Also, they can read nonverbal cues, and I can't (not just from boredom, I simply can't read them unless they are extreme). They can go up to people and start a conversation, I usually can't( not just because I am afraid to. I don't know how to approach a group or start conversations)
I'm gifted and dx'd Asperger's and ADHD-(Inattentive type). I'm right there with Random42, sensory issues, lack of friends (and lack of knowledge or instinct to make them) and substantial communication difficulties due to my literal thinking (not knowing what people are trying to say, just hearing their actual words, unless I've learned the phrase, meaning, etc. through route (experiential and linear)). The combination of ASD and ADHD causes me to appear impulsive, impatient, outspoken, direct, blunt, rude, and uncaring about others. The energy used to control my impulses, like DevilKisses, and the energy used to interpret the behavior of other people leaves me completely drained to the point that I appear randomly incompetent (in the face of apparent competency when fully charged) which causes most of the problems in my relationships with others. So I wish I was only gifted, as anyone might wish for only good without the bad.
Oh and I love that phrase: goldfish with Alzheimer's disease that is so me when I'm tired and bored!
@ random 42 as well the poster quoted above.
I don't know what I am. I seem to be some sort of walking oddity and I can't quite figure out what I have.
Traits I had as a child:
Sensitivity to certain materials (pure wool/certain wool mixes, labels in clothing), textures of food (ie mashed potato), overly sensitive scalp, sensitivity to noise and very very bright sunlight.
Difficulty fitting in: tic in nose meant other children thought I was pulling faces when I was not; Difficulty taking turns whilst playing in groups. Sulks if they changed the rules of the game without telling me. Preference for playing alone but only some of the time. Odd interests (collected bank forms rather than played with dolls). Would only play pretend tea parties if my parents would make me real tea to put in my tea cup; was bullied.
Very academically bright...labelled as exceptionally bright and extremely intelligent. Advanced vocabulary for my age. Started school early due to level of brightness. Asynchronous development though as tested at age 13 by psychologists after bullying left me with emotional issues causing me to act out. Advanced development (well beyond my years according to tests) in certain areas such as moral development but was also said to be emotionally immature, over sensitive and too idealistic.
Difficulty fitting in with same age peers but could actually socialise with children older than myself or adults. Often prone to wandering off on parents, especially if i saw something interesting. A true story, on at least one occasion my parents were left looking for me in a panic when they saw me on the shoulders of a stranger walking along the pier towards them. I had an ice cream I did not have when they lost me so he must have bought it for me. On returning me to my mother, my mother said to the stranger "I am sorry about that, she wondered off on me" to which he replied "don't worry about it love, we have been having the most fascinating conversation!"
I was only about 4 so I must have been able to talk to people at one point...!
I would have terrible tantrums if my scooby doo schedule was changed so apparently I liked a little routine back then. However, at the same time I abhor being tied to the clock in other ways (except my bedtime which I have to stick too or my circadian rhythm goes funny...I have sleep issues). Yes I like some things to remain the same, especially if my environment or home life is very chaotic, but I hate being trapped in a rut and in some ways I like difference or variety.
As an adult:
I can sometimes pick one hobby above all others and obsess over that one, but at the moment my brain wants to know everything and won't choose. I often choose one or two or three to pick on because there are not enough hours in the day to learn everything or do all the things I want to have a go at. I am very very intense about hobbies. I really fall head over heels in love with them. I also amass huge collections in relation to them.
I still don't mix well and seem to have no friends. I have been out every day trying to socialise for 5 months now and still have not made contacts although I have had a few conversations in passing. I do not know why...I know I find it hard to make friends with people but I can't tell if its social anxiety (ie because I am nervous) or if I just don't know what to do next. I know I feel unsure of what to do next when people speak to me...but is it because I am worried about doing the wrong thing or because I don't know what I should be doing in the first place. I just draw a blank. There is an empty space/black hole where that information should be.
When I have made friends they usually attach themselves to me but the friendships don't last long. I am quirky...an apparently hard to get hold of (I am hard to track down when people want me...I believe elusive is the word they use to describe me). I am also called odd, weird, strange, different, unusual, strange and eccentric.
I still don't like certain things changed and still like to do some things the same way but not everything...somethings I like to constantly change and do differently.
I can sometimes find myself confusing.
People have referred to me as a walking host of contradictions. I can't help but to agree with them.
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