sharkattack wrote:
I was was just under a year redundant from a job is which I was bullied and I really felt worthless and I wanted to die.
Skip forward I am in a new job and I take no **** and I have learned to drive and become quite good at it.
I am a content individual bordering on happy.
I am confident in my abilities however I know I can not form relationships or make friends without great effort.
My autism is something I have to work around not something that ruins my life anymore.
This post is aimed at people at their lowest point things do get better.
Getting motivated might not make you feel better but it will keep you busy and when your attention is somewhere else your effort pays off that is my experience.
Well during the past few days I was on and off the lowest I've been since before wp.
But afer a while that after awhile of getting all those comments and pms of people sticking up for me or telling me that I am important and that how what a certin user said impacted them because they cared about me and believed that I didn't deserved it and me or others did not do anything wrong .
the one that stood out the most and had the most impact were Cornflakes pm and the messages that followed
I realized that my posts are not just meaningless gibberish, holding a grude or me trying to be in some kind of unhealthy fantasy.
I also realized that you guys weren't trying to make my posts seem more import then they really were just to make me feel special or were unintentionally making me arrogant.
And that people on here genuinely like me and care about me .
Now I want to mention how amazing cocky rebel is. And to him I would like to say I herd this some people made you feel really unwelcome on here and I want to say if anyone ever makes you feel like that don't lose who you are.
I realized that my posts matter to people and that it could impact their lives. Just like I saw him and other users that I admire very much.
I Know that at times becides the cruel stuff that have no place here there is a lot of run of mill normal occasional disagreeing and misunderstanding each other.
Just remember at the end of the day we should all be friends on here because for some of us it's the only place to go to and one day we need to come together to make things better not just for autistics but for everyone.
Because here I have a voice and a place that I can a home call home where I am safe and with people who want to see me happy. And that I deserve to feel safe and happy.
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Your Aspie score: 192 of 200 Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 9 of 200 You are very likely an Aspie PDD assessment score= 172 (severe PDD)
Autism= Awesome, unique ,Special, talented, Intelligent, Smart and Mysterious
13 Mar 2014, 9:31 pm
