Is interesting. Depression. What does one call the difference between natural depression and depression?
I mean... Everyone gets depressed sometimes.
I was always taught never to mention things like depression to doctors. Here years ago it would be padded cell treatment... So no one mentions depression! But I can go from happiness to depression in a few minutes. I can also go through weeks or even months of depression, but then I can go for a long time without it and be joyful. Such is life.
When I am "Fragile" so I am vunerable to many partial shutdowns in a day, I find making decisions really difficult, and I find I can then hit depression in minutes when I put off making decisions... Which can cloud the whole day. But I do try to find ways to lift myself out of it... Sometimes I can't if I see nothing to hope for. Is why on this site I have found it so valueable just to talk. I say many, many words and keep typing and typing so I can divert my mind from being depressed...Though I usually get anxiety first before depression hits. I find depression hits fast when I'm fragile. Is not gradual. It comes down like someone throwing a blanket over me. I feel like I want to get out! I think when I get this deeply it can lead to a claustrophobic like situation that brings out a panic (I know this is conflicting but I can get this total mix of emotions.. Though it is rare) which can bring on what I can only describe as a rush of anger which is a likely to be a type of meltdown? Not often this happens so is rare, but is a panic rizing due to knowing one is depressed which sets my mind into loads and loads of thoughts and terminates in a sort of mild meltdown (?) and then I get release from it and I am at peace lifted from all the previous feelings of depression, and anxiety before that... It is like lying in a small rowing boat on a dead calm sea or lake... Such peace...
But it is rare to have this when depressed, but it has happened and ended depression entirely... I only mention this as it is strange.
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