Its all well and good advising to 'find a happy place', but that is likely to just piss you off even more.
All I can offer is the knowledge that many of us have been in similar situations before, so we at least have an idea of what you are going through.
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Recollect me darling, raise me to your lips
two undernourished egos, four rotating hips.
Hold on to me tightly I'm a sliding scale
cant endure then you can't inhale