Praetorius wrote:
I mean, for most people their life's dream is to become rich and famous, have a family, go travelling, make a difference, etc. However, I know that I will probably spend my entire life struggling with Asperger's. If I could simply become a normal person, I think that I could look back at the end of my life and be satisfied with what I've done.
It's just that as I get older, I look back at the lives of all my peers and see what they've done and I realize what I've missed out on. It's like I've already lost twenty years of my life. I can't ever get those back. I'm far behind everyone else and it feels as though it's impossible to catch up.
Ah...maybe what needs to be considered is that people don't come back to us after they've died to tell us whether or not being rich and famous, having a family, traveling, etc. was worth what they thought it was worth. It's all about priorities and, personally, all I see is most people living with warped priorities.
As for feeling like it's impossible to catch up?...that's because it is, so if catching up is also another priority, then you're probably being foolish to judge your life by how other people appear to be enjoying theirs. That's the beauty of Asperger's if you'll only give it a chance...there are treasures, but unless you dig and search for them, you'll always remain on the surface never having begun to truly enjoy the life you've been given.
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"Has not my hand made all these things, and so they came into being?" declares the LORD. "This is the one I esteem: he who is humble and contrite in spirit, and trembles at my word." – Isaiah 66:2