I have Anxiety all the time

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I also have way more anxiety about whether or not I should talk to a person sitting next to me in clas than whether or not I would get into a good school. Little things make me so nervous, but an 8 page paper or college apps, while stressful, don't make me nearly as freaked out. I also had digestive problems from late middle school-late high school. I assumed I had IBS or something for a while, but it went away without a noticeable diet change, and hasn't returned. Stress did aggravate it, but I didn't feel like it was always stress induced. It severely impaired my life but I hid it well and didn't tell my parents about it - now, even though Im stressed out about starting college, it hasn't returned. I wonder what that was about.

When I try to ignore my anxiety, it won't go away. It gets worse until I don't have body awareness, like I wouldn't know if I were upsidedown or sideways, except that I can see that I'm rightsideup. I start to get spacy. It never helped me to tough it out.

I am constantly anxious, about all sorts of things, but as far as I can remember I was told I was the most laid back person, which suggests that I am very good at hiding it. I don't know whether that is neccessarily a good thing or not. Sometimes I have found myself anxious over a potential situation, a dilemma, I guess. The best way of getting over it is taking a deep breath and pick the most difficult option, and do it. I know its impulse, but I wouldn't have got as far as I have without taking the occassional risk. Then it is one less thing to worry about.

A good example for me is phone calls. I hate them intensely, and think about who I have to speak to, for how long, about what in particular. But sometimes I grit my teeth and make them, giving myself the just do it approach, and I feel a little more confident, if slightly exhausted from the whole experience. I know I'm slightly digressing here, but overcoming my anxiety by taking little steps helps me take bigger steps without the anxiety.