What causes your self-preservation?

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My self-preservation instinct is always on, not in the sense of an outrageous reaction, but it's there. This will to life, though, is subordinate to the original instinct: the will to power. This will to power constantly tests me in big and small ways and may even at times contradict the will to life. To understand the concepts I am mentioning here, please consult Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche's Beyond Good and Evil: A Prélude to a Philosophy of the Future.

I get in that kind of state when I am in a situation(usually social) where I feel most people are against me. This could be a debate situation, or when I'm being picked on, or even good-natured teasing, sometimes. If there is someone backing me up it is not so bad, but I've been alone in a group of people who've got it out for me many times, and I'm terrified of something similar to that happening again
I also get in that mode when I perceive a slight against my younger siblings. Usually not Amelia, though, because she's social skills girl and often ends up taking care of me

Have you meet Sophist of St.Louis yet. If not I highly suggest it.
You 2 think very similar.

How big is your family?
How often do you feel people are against you?
How many siblings do you get along with?

Sincerely,
Ghosthunter

My family consists of my parents and 5 kids. I am the oldest. Amelia is my only biological sibling. I get along with her very well, we are almost constantly together as we are both homeschooled together and our social activities are together mostly, as well(she has friends that I don't, but mostly they're mutual) We do fight sometimes, usually because I messed something up socially Miki is adopted, 12 and has Down Syndrome. I get along with her very well, I can identify with her need to know what will happen and her desire for consistency, and she adores all the girly stuff-makeup, perfume, fancy dresses, so I have lots of fun playing around with that with her. I can't remember ever getting mad at her, though she can be exasperating. Noah is 6, adopted, and has some sensory issues. He is annoying, I get along with him the worst out of all my siblings, which doesn't mean that I don't like him, because I do, he's just irritating. He makes a lot of weird demands, and seems to think he is in charge all the time. He also always wants to go different ways when we drive somewhere, which Mom invariably does But I love him anyways, and I get along with him OK. Those are all the siblings at Mom's house. At Dad's there is Jake. He is 16 and very, very ret*d, basically a walking infant. There's really nothing to get along with there. As for Mom and Dad, I get along with Dad better, but I like Mom better.
I can't really say exactly how often I feel that people are against me. It happens when I have to defend my opinions or beliefs, when I feel rejected or shunned, etc. etc. Maybe twice a month in a mild form, once every two months or so in a moderate form, and once or twice a year in a severe form.

ok, who voted that Ghosthunter should be shot???

That is a lot of kids.



How old are you?
How old is she?



I am glad this sounds like the normal sibling relationship.
J & D go at it, and then get along just fine.




Down Syndrome is often in TV shows. I forgot the
title of the last one I forgot, but the kid got a lot of
parts and issues discussed.

How is she exasperating? Is that tiring? or something?
implied? I am glad that you can find peace there.





What type of demands other than the one you
used.

What is his DX? Sensory issue?



I am quite sure his character will tone abit.



Hmmm? Why do you get along better w/dad, but like mom?



The adoption thing in your family is definely outstanding.
What is your parents motivation?

Thanks for posting here! and I love this insight.

I am 19, she is 15. ANd it actually doesn't seem like a lot of kids when you're living in it. I'd be happy if Mom adopted more children, but that's not going to happen We also had a foster kid for a while, but we got too frustrated with the state's custody laws, so I'd be shocked if she took another foster child





She's exasperating usually because she is so rigid in the way things need to be done(it's not her fault, it's just the way she is) For example, in the morning I give her a shower, brush and fix her hair(at least 15min of screams and cries and flailing from her...she's tactile defensive, especially with her head) and help her get dressed. It's absolutely impossible for her to skip or postpone her shower, or anything else in her mental schedule. And if she is always sooooo slow in doing everything, when you have to do something efficiently it's a major pain. She's wonderful, though, I wouldn't give her up for anything.






His dx is sensory integration disorder. He feels he should be allowed to do anything he wants, that everything is his toy. He also breaks other peoples things on purpose, for fun. Argh...he can be so annoying





I get along better with Dad because he accomodates for my difficulties, tells me things in advance without complaint, etc. He's very easygoing and easy to get along with. But he's also kind of a jerk. I can talk to Mom about anything not related to my AS, I don't feel comfortable talking to Dad about anything serious, except AS That's all I want to say in a post, but if you want to know any further you can email me.





Well, Mom loves kids, and she wanted to give a home to children who wouldn't otherwise have one. That's about as much as I know about her motivation.

What makes this foster system suck?



I assume you love the challenge?

Oh boy...Well, the foster child we got was 4mo when we got him, obviously abused and neglected, many broken bones that the Drs said must have been from extreme force inflicted by an adult He had also never been to a doctor. He was emotionally damaged, and his family was all sorts of messed up, constantly being arrested for things like assault, and variations on that. The agency very joyously gave him back to his father(who, incedentally the weekend the baby went home, was in jail for attacking his girlfriend with a knife) without question a thing. Kids go back into families where they get screwed up like crazy, when they'd be better off in foster homes,though any child under a year old with no major heath problems is going to be adopted very quickly because there are so many people *dying* for a baby. So the state effectively *creates* damaged people by placing children back in these situations!! ! GRRRRR!! !!



I could do without the challenge Miki is the sweetest, kindest, most generous and giving person I have ever met. She loves everyone, and can never fail to cheer you up. She is truly a gift from God

Nothing much really. Insults directed torwards me are always met with either sarcasm or me just not caring. I don't care hwat most people think or say, so I'm not very easy to annoy.



Personal space invading would probably be one of the few times I get a "fight or flee" instinct reaction. But only if it's unexpected.

Whatever "preservation" means, I think I don't have/do it.