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Was I better off before or am I better off now?
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UnfoldedCranes
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30 Nov 2007, 10:12 pm

You were optimistic about the future; that didn't work out the way you thought. You're now uneasy about the future, but I suspect that will also work out differently than you think. Don't try to go back. Figure out what you want from your life now, and move towards that... whether or not that means you'll eventually come full circle.



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01 Dec 2007, 4:54 pm

UnfoldedCranes wrote:
You were optimistic about the future; that didn't work out the way you thought. You're now uneasy about the future, but I suspect that will also work out differently than you think. Don't try to go back. Figure out what you want from your life now, and move towards that... whether or not that means you'll eventually come full circle.


I want people to look up to me and I want to feel important. I want to feel like I am working towards something greater than myself.

Will that ever happen? I'm not sure I can objectively answer that question, but I guess that if I force myself to get good at my job and eventually get good at it, my coworkers will appreciate my performance and I'll feel important within my microcosm of existence.



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01 Dec 2007, 8:27 pm

Double...


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01 Dec 2007, 10:33 pm

Difficult question to answer.

I don't know if I'm better off, but I can say I've found some renewed confidence.


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01 Dec 2007, 10:53 pm

Question: how old were you then and how old are you now? Consider your respetive ages, and realize partof this is simply from having a broader life experience.


I agree with the "knowledge is power" contingent. I think that what happens is once we start acquire a more realistic assessment of things, we can become overwhelmed and pessismistic. But all that means is we have KNOWLEDGE but we still lack UNDERSTANDING. We have yet to put that knwoledge into prespective. Right now, that knwoledge seems liek this monolithic presnec ein your life, yet you stilll don't know everything. There is still much, much more ot learn and expeirence, and as you gain those insights, what you know now will be put into a more reasonable (and bearable) prespective.

This happens to everyone who seek out genuine self-awareness and self-possession. The whole transistion from knowledge to understanding is intimidiating and more challenging than we usually bargained for, which is why so many people are content wallow in their own ignorance. Don't be that kind of person.

All this reflection and questioning the value of this knowledge is part of you acquiring understanding. It's good thing, but not all good things are "comfortable." Discomfort like this provokes us, keeps us on the move, makes us ask questions and look for answers, prevents us from being stagnant.

I feel like I should be calling you "Grasshopper" at this moment, but I won't.


Anyhow, to sum it up: as Stalin once said "If you find yourself in hell, keeping going." See, even maniacal, genocidal directors can have their moments of clarity and insight. So can you. Just keep going - you'll find yourself again.



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02 Dec 2007, 4:11 am

AspieMartian I like your post. thanks :)



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02 Dec 2007, 10:01 am

AspieMartian wrote:
Question: how old were you then and how old are you now? Consider your respetive ages, and realize partof this is simply from having a broader life experience.


I agree with the "knowledge is power" contingent. I think that what happens is once we start acquire a more realistic assessment of things, we can become overwhelmed and pessismistic. But all that means is we have KNOWLEDGE but we still lack UNDERSTANDING. We have yet to put that knwoledge into prespective. Right now, that knwoledge seems liek this monolithic presnec ein your life, yet you stilll don't know everything. There is still much, much more ot learn and expeirence, and as you gain those insights, what you know now will be put into a more reasonable (and bearable) prespective.

This happens to everyone who seek out genuine self-awareness and self-possession. The whole transistion from knowledge to understanding is intimidiating and more challenging than we usually bargained for, which is why so many people are content wallow in their own ignorance. Don't be that kind of person.

All this reflection and questioning the value of this knowledge is part of you acquiring understanding. It's good thing, but not all good things are "comfortable." Discomfort like this provokes us, keeps us on the move, makes us ask questions and look for answers, prevents us from being stagnant.

I feel like I should be calling you "Grasshopper" at this moment, but I won't.


Anyhow, to sum it up: as Stalin once said "If you find yourself in hell, keeping going." See, even maniacal, genocidal directors can have their moments of clarity and insight. So can you. Just keep going - you'll find yourself again.


Brilliant and insightful post AM, thanks.

Mw, I can sympathize (wow lol) and relate to what you are going though. I had found myself in a similar situation of late and am working my way though it.

I can't really give any better advice than I quoted above... but just wanted to say don't be too hard on yourself... you will get through this and be better for the struggle.



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03 Dec 2007, 7:53 pm

Jett wrote:
I can't really give any better advice than I quoted above... but just wanted to say don't be too hard on yourself... you will get through this and be better for the struggle.


I don't think I'll get through it... my OCD won't let me ;)



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04 Dec 2007, 2:55 pm

it appears your worse.


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