Pick up the phone and call. I know it is scary but you will be so relieved once you have done it. I finally had the courage to talk to my doctor about stress and depression due to overwork, I was so afraid she would just blow me off and tell me to take meds, when I know that is not the answer for me, that to take meds would be to surrender my last bit of humanity and become the robot my job/society is insisting I become. To my great surprise she sat and listened and did not offer any judgement even when I said I did not want to live if this was what life was about.
She is going to try and get me counseling and a diagnosis. She referred me to one center but when I checked their website I do not think they have what I need, they are more for kids and young adults. But I am sure there have to be other resources in the area, if not I may have to travel out of town.
I am scared because I do not know what impact this will have on my life, but I do know if I do not do anything I will die. There are all too many people out there who would just sit back and let that happen, then wring their hands afterwards. Is life worth fighting for?
05 Jun 2008, 4:36 pm
We found a place and I made an appointment for two weeks in the future.
