How many of you tried to kill themselves?

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Never tried. Never will.

sadly, i did make a full attempt in november of last year, just before thanksgiving. i missed thanksgiving because i was in a coma and hooked to a respirator in ICU.
i thought about my existence seriously when i woke up and saw the worried faces of my family around me. how could i put them through that? what sort of a**hole was i? what few friends i do have gave me what for. but again, how could i put them through that?

never again. bipolar sucks, big time. but i resolved myself to never ever put my loved ones and people who are willing to accept me the way i am and love me anyway through something like that ever again. when i woke out of the coma and saw them, the first thing i wanted to do was cry. nuff said.

That's an understatement, it sucks more than big time. My uncle is bi-polar and has tried 3 times. The last time he ended up in a coma for several weeks on a ventilator and I think suffered some permanent brain damage from it (combo of anti-depressants and alchol).

Speaking personally, I have had a cousin and a grandfather who have committed suicide - and another cousin who has made an attempt (the son of the uncle mentioned above with bi-polar disorder). It's awful all for everyone. Awful for the person who dies - while they've ended their torment and suffering, they've also ended their life. The anguish that one goes through to get to that point must be absolutely horrendous.

And then the family who is left behind - they suffer as well. Not only from the loss of the person they loved, but also from wondering what in the world they could have done or should have done. My cousin died at the age of 43 (he had an earlier attempt about 10 years earlier that was narrowly unsuccessful) and left behind two sons who were 13 and 15 at the time of which he had sole physical custody. My grandfather left behind 6 kids, the youngest was 10, the oldest 20.