Anybody else here procrastinate out of anxiety?

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I would not have been able to answer this until I found out what procrastinate means. I could not really be bothered to find out what it means... Haha. Joking! I did used to assume that procrastinate was some sort of technical term!)

Ok. Back to answering the question.

YES. I have to procrastinate when I have anxiety. I am forced to because if I don't I will almost seamlessly slip into a partial shutdown which if I ignore I will get a full shutdown.

So I have no choice but to take it easy. This is the number one main difficulty I face when trying to work and why I was seriously struggling. And working while in a partial shutdown is not only difficult as it is like wearing a heavy iron suit of armour... It is also dangerous as I would be prone to accidents as I am in a mental daze and my ability to judge where my hand or other parts of my body are in relationship to the rest of my body can be effective, so I could easily put my hand into spokes, or worse still I could so easily put a finger in a brake disc which would cut it clean off... I have to really concentrate in what I am doing which then brings a deeper shutdown.

Autistic task paralysis.

I have a closet full of that t-shirt.

I like to draw too though it's not procrastination for me as it's more short term memory issues and conflicting interests.

Once upon a time. Even to a point of lying out of it.

Then one day, it just... Stopped.
A part of me woke up -- the very one that can definitely say that we have no real reasons to worry at all.
Not even failures and faults, not even the consequences and any outcomes, no even pain and death -- with a straight face and no uncertainty behind it.


Yeah, I'd still get confused, forgetting things, overwhelmed, uncertain, still make mistakes, still gets stressed out and in need for breaks in between...
But no longer have this forefront idea of avoiding, no longer 'freeze' or paralyze, no longer have to bolt out of the would-be stressor of a trigger.

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