Missing places/times instead of people

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I am completely in love with Nice (where I live at the moment) in France. When I first came here I fell in love and couldnt wait to live here. Once I started to live here I was constantly amazed that I was here and felt terribly homesick when I went back on visits 'home' to the UK. Even when I have been here I have felt the longing to continue being here. Ironically, since living here I have been through a very severe depression - maybe partly even caused by my obsession for Nice because I feel so much pain at the thought of leaving.

My job contract has come to an end and I have to leave this summer after 3.5 years. I seem to have accepted this to a certain extent as I know that in terms of people I have made a mess of things and I do still want to experience living in another culture (germany next), but at the same time I feel bereft. Its almost like loving a person that you cant have and you know its best to leave them and forget about them - I have felt at home here and I love everything about this place, but at the same time it causes me so much pain that I sometimes think the only way to escape it is to live somewhere else and to make a new life and never come back. It has been a difficult life here, but oh, the sea, the mountains, the markets, the beautiful light, even the dirt (but not the people, can do without them) - I will miss it so much when I go.