Aspergers and Self Harm article

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I SI!

But... I don't have Asperger's, the diagnosis was wrong. I have Social Anxiety Disorder. So I don't know what I'm still doing on a forum for people with AS. I just find it interesting.

When I SI it is quite bad, quite deep. I cut.
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i do head-banging and wont talk to anyone even when asked because most of time when this happens im pissed off

I still get relentless urges to bang my head on something solid. Sometimes the urge to scream makes me shake, just vibrate my whole body with the need to scream my bloody head off.

I have learned over the years that banging my head makes it hurt, and the blood running down into my eyes can freak out even the nicest people. Screaming rips out my larynx where I can't even breathe with out rattleing the frayed shreds of my vocal cords.

after I took my need to do all these things to their ultimate limit, I found I didn't like to deal with the results. So I stopped responding to the need and urge to do it, my body got too old to want to deal with the aftermath anymore

Merle

I mess up the skin on my arm.
I know a friend of a friend who has scars(I'm sure she's NT). She's been called emo;D
I have to admit it feels good. The stimulation gives me a strange high that helps with these painful teen years.

i have a lot of scars from intentional cutting, on my upper forearms and a few on my lower and a few here and there on my legs.
in my earlier years i had great difficulty with self-harm. it is connected to overwhelm and sensory overload for me.

i no longer cut myself and actually had to "learn" not to partake in self-injury, susing a lot of CBT approaches and techniques.

Nope, I don't engage in self-harm. I only did before I knew more about being slightly Autistic...and only because I thought I was an idiot. Once I started piecing everything together, the self-harm ended. Now I just wish I could smack around half the NTs I deal with all the time.

My self harm is also more of a stim, picking skin the worse one thing I still find hard to control at times. 1-200! well it must be an an older article I guess.. does tend to imply we are all the same, not so sure about the always! we are not all drones, but overall some great points, brings back some adolescence memories.... .

It's been almost a year since I performed SI behavior, but the urge has been getting alot harder to resist. When I hit sensory overload I burn (can't handle the sight of my own blood.) But I don't know, some days are good, some are not so good. One day at a time.

I've done it due to being so f****d with irrational emotion, I was overloaded.

I once did it in front of a group of kids who were taunting me...started ripping my hair out...

I hate NT kids.

I have a history of very severe "moderate" self injury.. I've had several psychiatrist tell me I was the worst they'd ever seen. I've known one person who was as bad as I was with the self-injury, and I'm quite sure that she has an autistic disorder as well.. I read an article about how a fairly high percentage of anorexics are likely to have undiagnosed AS.. noting that girls are unlikely to be diagnosed, and that the intensity of an anorexic's obsession with food and weight is awfully AS-esque.

(There are three TYPES of self-injury:
Repetitive, which is like the head-banging you see in mental retardation, kanners, and lesch-nyhan syndrome
Moderate, which is the emotionally based coping mechanism, and
Major, which occurs with psychotic disorders, like schizophrenics plucking out their eyes)


When there's as much frustration as someone with AS has, and so little ability to communicate it, it shouldn't be at all surprising...

Used to self injure a lot when hospitalized. Mostly head banging but also cutting. Was probably due to the stress of being in an unfamiliar situation surrounded by strangers. Stopped self injuring when they stopped admitting me.

i've self-injured since adolescence, but i suspect it also has to do with a history of abuse. (pain overload.) i do have a sense of being overwhelmed prior to self-injury. not sure i can untangle what that sense of "overwhelm" is all about.

i like the last few sentences of the article. something along the lines of "would rather have guidelines for dealing with an irrational world." sure would like that. sure would like that. sure would like that.

instruction manual, please.

Depends on what sort of self injury.

Cutting: I've come close too many times to count.

Other sorts such as head banging, hair pulling, etc: on and off.

i had blisters inside my mouth at age thirteen. it bothered me, so i bit on the blister till it exploded. then i had more blisters and bit them, too. and then i got used to it and didnt feel any pain when opening them with my teeth, and i kinda liked the way it felt, so i bit my lips untill sometimes they were swollen, and still didnt feel pain. i did it for decades and now i think i finally stopped.

I used to scream and scream and scream. It hurt my throat. I almost never scream now, well, maybe inwardly, I scream a lot inwardly, mostly when I am frustrated by my inability to physically manipulate things easily.