fragileclover wrote:
Also, I smell and inspect every single dish or glass I'm about to use. If there is any detectable scent, or if there are spots (even if they are water), I won't use that plate or dish. This creates issues, too, because I try to be kind to the environment, but I usually eat off of paper plates and use plastic utensils. I hope when I have my own home I'll be able to find a detergent scent I like and make sure the dishes are thoroughly rinsed before going into the dishwasher.
I do that too, my family are used to it now and so sometimes I forget how odd I must look smelling all the cutlery before I use it. I am particularly odd with spoons. I have my own cutlery that is just for me and my own plastic plates and dishes. In my own flat I have labels on my big spoons so I never stir soup and porridge with the same spoon. Once my boyfriend used one of the mugs to make gravy in and now I can't use any of them as they are all the same colour and I don't know which one it was. Luckily he has now bought me a mug just for me and promised not to use it. I always ask for the paper cups if I go to Starbucks and then feel very guilty about the environment.
I wish I could change all of this, it seems to absurd when I can see it written down. It is quite embarrassing for me. My boyfriend told his family that I have 'psychological issues' and they have been very polite and never mentioned anything, even when I have gone to their house and eaten nothing but I dread going into situations where people will comment on my eating. I have tried very hard to fix this, and it is traumatic and impossible.