How Often Do You Think About Suicide?

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I use to think about it all the time,in the past I lived quite recklesly.
Doing things like riding my dirt bike too fast and basicaly being stupid
hopeing something would go right/wrong?
I think if it was not wanting to hurt my mother I would be gone.
I spent a week in the psyic ward when I was feeling down.
That was a waist of time.
I suffer from mygrains and am really getting tired of them.
get one every couple of weeks.
The only thing is,is that some how I feel I will
be punished if I opt out of this life
Must be some point to this.
Maybe there is some thing about observing things in the world
like in the double slit experiment

I still think about killing myself daily but I am scared to God of what would happen if I didn't die. I always figured If I killed myself it would be from a shot to the head but after hearing about the number of people that survive, I'm thinking a sawed off shotgun is the way to go. The thought of surviving such a gruesome suicide attempt is worst than death itself.

Once in a blue moon, when I'm really down. But I do have a bit going for me right now.

I think shame is related to guilt. Blame may or may not be.

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As a parent whose child has attempted suicide I resent your attitude.

My child was on medication that I was unaware could increase suicidal tendencies and at the same time being set up and bullied by her then girlfriend who was actively setting out to destroy her. It was me who saved her life and supported her through it all.

Parents can screw you up, true, but they are not responsible for everything bad in someone's life

Blaming others all the time means you never take responsibility for your own mistakes.

About a month ago, a good friend committed suicide here. It was horrible. He shot himself. I had just seen him the day before we were all hanging out, he seemed fine, there was nothing no "hints" that he had a plan to kill himself and he showed no signs of depression.

This is the scary thing, it makes everything worse. He killed himself and left us all in a state of disbelief and shock at first. We never saw it coming. The same thing goes for his family, they never saw it coming.

I am no stranger to depression and suicide attempts, and had i any idea that my friend was suicidal and had the means to do i would have done whatever it took to stop him from killing himself.

My friend's mother found him. The whole tragedy was horrible, she's going to have to live with that image the rest of her life. I feel so bad for his sister, he had family that loved him.

Depression can be such a monster.
When someone is determined, they are determined, it takes a lot of guts to pull the trigger.

While i understand what you are saying, i think it depends on the individual parents, areas.

I would never blame the parents for if their child committed suicide. The parents are usually shocked and are victims, they and the remaining family and friends are "survivors" left after the person has taken their life.

The guilt the should have could have done is there, yet it's a survivor's guilt. Sometimes there is truly nothing one could have done.
If you had no idea to begin with, you wouldn't be able to stop it.

Then there are the cases where the parents are neglectful/abusive/addicts/or don't pay attention or care to tend their children. Maybe they are too busy "keeping up with the Jones" and the white picket fence image with their neighbor. I though psychiatry became more acceptable over the years in the USA anyway.


Honestly, mrL, do you have children yourself?
I can't imagine any loving parent who would sit back and do nothing while knowing their child was suicidal.
My friend just turned 23 when he killed himself last month. There was nothing anyone could have done. I still have guilt as i feel that with my psychiatric background i should have been able to identify warning signs better. Then i blamed it on my "zoning out" a lot and possibly i missed signs. Yet mutual friends who hung out missed signs also. It's just the shock that we had no idea and then he murdered himself.
When i found out it hit me hard. It had to be the most hardest emotional death i've ever dealt with in my life. And i've been through many losses. I think the sheer shock of what happened, the not expecting it, and survivors guilt that maybe i could have prevented it had i noticed enough...

I don't know what a parent experiences, I do know what its like to reach that point though. I can't comment further. I see your point though, not all parents are to blame, I was insensitive making that generalization however some parents do not do everything possible; some parents are to blame. Every situation is different.some parents save their kids lives while others watch them slip away.

That is human nature, not everyone is the best person they could be, and some parents don't seem to know how to, or possibly want to, support their kids properly but for the most part parents do care and do try their best.

I'm truly sorry if your experience made you think that uncaring parents are the norm, they really aren't.

just to add:

sometimes parents try their best but don't have the skills or understanding to do it right and I suspect that that can look like they don't care too.

Never.

You forgot to put a "Never" option, which is mine.

I can relate to almost every word in this post. I thought about suicide in school and I think about it every single day, several times a day. I work a building maintenance job which is like housekeeping but significantly dirtier and a bit more dangerous. I make crap for a living. I haven't had any real friends since i was in school some 14 years ago. I think it's an aspie thing to wait around for miracles... i've waited my whole life and things just keep getting worse. I'm getting bitter now watching others have the things I don't. girlfriends... friends... family... the ability to have fun... I'm at a point now where I lost contact with all the people i knew and only my sisters keep in touch with me. I don't talk to anyone.. I avoid people.. I'm tired of being poor... tired of being stuck... suicide sounds like the only escape from this unfair nonsense and like other aspies i don't see it as a bad thing... everyone has to go someday... i ask myself 'wouldn't it be better to go now and stop watching myself fail at everything? It would be a lot less embarrassing that's for sure.

I find it sad that there are so many of us out there struggling with almost the exact same problem but we are all too antisocial to get together and help eachother.

I'm not really thinking about suicide at the moment because I have a boyfriend and he is trying to teach me to like myself a bit more and bring me out of my shell. I hope it does help, because I seem to be beyond help with therapy, I'm scared to go on tablets, and so I've always thought that a change of lifestyle might be the only way because I have been stuck in a lonely rut for so long. I think now is the time I need to feel special to somebody and be took out and meet new people and have him take me under his wing, which he is willing to do. I am trying to think positive at the moment.

But yes I do often become suicidal, mostly when having a meltdown. I do really feel like the only way to escape is to do myself in. But I am strong enough to hold back those feelings, and I haven't got the guts to do it anyway.

i never think about suicide. i want to live forever to see what happens in the distant future.
but i know i can not live forever, so i will just use my imagination to try to foresee what the distant future may hold.

It used to be pretty much everyday, until I went on anti-depressants. Now it's a VERY rare thought.

It's been a long time since I seriously thought of doing it, but regularly I consider what's the value in my going on.