"Everyone has AS to some degree." This reply ok?
I was just taking your word for it. I'm too lazy/tired to look up your recent post where you said you were extremely high-functioning but I remember you saying it - can't remember the thread or the context, but I think it was a few days ago.
Admittedly I made an assumption about your marriage being good. I've got an appalling memory but I thought you had said positive things about your marriage before.
All right, I can relate to that. I went through a very recent period of thinking about suicide every single day for a few weeks; I even started concocting plans. All I wanted to do was die to escape the pain.
I guess I handle it in very different way. I don't go around telling everyone I want to be dead, but I certainly don't put on a "cheerful" or "happy" face on internet forums. It seems especially counterproductive to put on a mask on in an autism forum, but what do I know? I'm genuinely sorry you feel so bad, all right? I wouldn't wish severe depression on my worst enemy - well, I would actually >_>. But I wouldn't wish it on anybody else.
Holy f*****g crap. You need to back off. This is not a contest for who has the most problems.
NiceCupofTea, I thank you for explaining your misunderstanding. Please don't think that I come here an put on some fake happy face. My life is very complex. I also absolutely love my husband and no one loves me more than he does except my parents and no one has ever been more committed to me than he has except my parents, so yes, in that sense I am very blessed and lucky. And we are both committed to each other and there are things that we enjoy together very much. But those things do make marriage easy and they do not in and of themselves make for a good marriage. Marriage is hard work for everyone, Aspie or NT, and adding the Aspie element only makes it harder. And my husband is a great and good man but he also has his own issues.
I do not come to WP to discuss everything that happens in my marriage and to talk about all of my life struggles or to throw pity parties for myself. I come here because I enjoy most of the conversations and I find this to be, for the most part, a place of encouragement and a place where I can take a break and relax and have conversation with other people on the Spectrum. And I find that I can sometimes encourage others here as well and that encourages me. And despite all of my struggles, which are many, I am a very positive person with a very positive outlook on many things in life and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Those of you who have come to know me here know that I am not fake, and that what you get is what I am. So if you think that I am overly positive than I can't help you. The only life I have is the life I have and as hard as it is I will find ways to enjoy it and to make the best of it whether you like it or not. So if I want to make try to some lemonade with what I have been given than more power to me.
Thank you Dianthus. I really appreciate you post.
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"I'm bad and that's good. I'll never be good and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be than me."
Wreck It Ralph
Holy f*****g crap. You need to back off. This is not a contest for who has the most problems.
I just like saying what I really think. It's boring being "supportive" and "respectful" all the time - oh so very boring.
If people want to make sarky comments about me, they can. Heck, I'd probably agree with them and suggest a few more faults with me.
Holy f*****g crap. You need to back off. This is not a contest for who has the most problems.
I just like saying what I really think. It's boring being "supportive" and "respectful" all the time - oh so very boring.
If people want to make sarky comments about me, they can. Heck, I'd probably agree with them and suggest a few more faults with me.
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"I'm bad and that's good. I'll never be good and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be than me."
Wreck It Ralph
Ah hell, you win. You're just too damned nice and sweet; I'm no match for your niceness! >_>.
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"I'm bad and that's good. I'll never be good and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be than me."
Wreck It Ralph
