im starting to want a cure..

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I can understand why some Aspies wouldn't want a cure. I mean, if I had good attention skills, able to find a special interest and focus on it, wasn't too self-aware or too aware of others, didn't find conformity important, had a really good memory with facts and numbers or whatever, had a high IQ, and was just overall happy with my ASD, then yeah, I suppose I wouldn't want a cure.

But I have the type of ASD what is only a nuisance to me and my life. I don't have very good attention span, the special interests I had just got me into trouble and I don't have special interests any more (the ones I do try to have just get ruined by the rat race), I'm very self-aware and aware of others (emotionally), I feel that conformity is important to me, I don't memorize things very well even my own interests, I'm thick when it comes to logical things, my IQ is just below average, and I don't have any savant or superior skills to make me feel blessed with ASD. All I feel like is an NT person with lots of emotional issues, like high anxiety, on-off depression, social phobia, sensitivity, learning difficulties, and inattentive (the latter two are more intellectual issues).

So when Aspie people say ''go and find a special interest and focus on it'', that is just assuming that all Aspies are able to have a special interest and focus on it until they can invent the world's first time machine and become billionaires.
Also, the ''you can spell and write good posts, so you're intelligent'' is also annoying. It doesn't take a genius to write so clearly on an internet forum, and I know loads of NTs who can write as well as I do. I've just gotten so used to typing.
And Aspies saying ''just don't worry about what NTs think of you'' is the equivalent to NTs saying to a depressed person ''just snap out of it!''
And, lastly, Aspies and NTs giving me a list of the successful Aspies that have become rich because of their savant skills, and how the world wouldn't be where it is today if it wasn't for Aspies, does not give me encouragement either.

You should read Elijah's Cup, Yingeren.

It's about a kid who went from being classically autistic to being Aspergian. I met the mother a few years after I read the book. I met the kid last year (about 10 years after I read the book). He is in his late 20's now. He seemed sad to me. He works as a waiter in a restaurant in a resort town.

Temple Grandin took a somewhat similar path; though she exhibits some classic-autistic symptoms.

You should also Google "Mr Inevitable." Elijah did a comedy routine about 8-10 years ago. He made fun of his own Asperger's.

I sense, these days though, that he feels "stuck." Even though I only saw him for a couple of minutes or so.

Lately I've been wanting a cure. I'm sick of having no executive functioning and being prone to anxiety, as well as having sensory problems. I just want to be a normal, healthy individual who can take care of himself.