Sometimes dangerous, non-sexual urges

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Tis a microhouse. It is as stated. 2 rooms. One is living, bedroom, kitchen and office. The other is the bathroom. That is it.

Reading your post was like reading about myself. In a bad way.

Heights are my big thing.
I either want to throw
myself, or things that I
need/care about off
of them.

I also get urges to push
people into traffic ect.
Especially those that
I like.

In short, yes, often get thoughts like this...sometimes very strong. Especially when I am standing in port looking down at the sea, I get strong urges to just jump in.

But I also get non dangerous crazy urges, like if I am in a theatre, I will get this insane urge to loudly say something...it is most odd.

I'm surprised to see other people posting about heights. I have big problems with heights where there's a possibility of falling (not in an aeroplane or in a room in a tall building), because I do find myself contemplating jumping, for no reason.

When I went to university, there was a stairwell in the main building that had the stairs hanging in space, mostly unconnected to two of the walls except where there were doors. There was no wall on the outside, just a huge set of windows. Just thinking about it makes me cringe. I think I managed to scale it all the way, a total of once. Going down was worse than going up, because I worried I'd be unable to stop, and tip over the rail into space. I think I was more scared of doing that absent-mindedly, than intentionally.

I get strong urges to do things like jump down 2 stories at the college. Or jump onto the hood of a passing car. Or dive into a lake I am passing. Jump out of my car while driving down the road. All sorts of weird things most of them would be dangerous. I often feel my body prepping to do the act even while my brain is saying "That would be dumb, this is what would happed..." I have never done any of these urges or felt that it would be likely that I would do them, but it is strange to have such a sudden desire to do something while consciously knowing that you don't actually want to do it.